在这冷冷的夜晚里， 我忽然有种哭笑不得的感觉。
也不知为和， 就是在有些时候，觉得没人了解。
又和必呢？
看起来最需要安慰的人，就真的最需要安慰了吗？
人就是那么的瞎也同时那么的笨。
就让那坚强而不掉眼泪的人自己在那程受一结吧。
也有些人会怪他。
怪他要一幅不在乎的样子。
人家说哭很累但笑也很累。
哭笑不的。
posted by Princess Flowerbloom at 12:30 AM
Monday, October 30, 2006
Special Mention of the day:
*Burps...* Very full. Just 2 of us.. and so much food. a WHOLE table filled with it... But thanks, it chased the Monday blues away. Far far away...
On the topic of food, I shall dedicate this post to DESERTS. And to you, whom I said I'll load all the pics up! Here they are!
Deserts. I usually have them with you you you. We just happen to always have desert after a meal right? " )
AND this is my fav. It's called HAZLENUT ROYAL. It's layers of waffles with hazlenut cream topped with choc ice cream. It's tastes reali awesome. And at the side, there's mango.
The simple RED BEAN, SWEET CORN. U love the red bean, I love the sweet corn. Just nice.
And here's both our fav! RED RUBIES! real chestnut wrapped in jelly like coatings!
FRUTTI-TUTTI - from GELARE! Beautiful!
My first cotton candy after like 6 years. Honey dew flavoured. I like cotton candy.
Sammy with our FRIED MARS BAR... It's hmmm sticky and sweeet and hmm i dun think we ll eat it anytime soon . haha if you get what i mean. It's reali soooo sweeet, you wan loads of water and tea.
Went with colleagues for dinner and had it at CAFE CARTEL... hawaiian pork chops. Enuff for 2 of me. It's HUGE. Can just think of someone who would reali like to have that. haha.. I on the other hand could onli finish 2 slabs of those.
But its highly reccommendable. No kidding.
Another one of my dinner menu. SPARE RIBS... i think im reali bad at cuttin this up. What with all the cutting and all, i think i gt finger cramps from it. And i was full after eating like half of it, coz i was so tired from cuttin it all up!
BAKER'S INNZ.. ...sumatra coffeee cake. It looks absolutely sinful and tastes it too.
And here's how the insides look like!
Sudddenly thought of Crystal Jade. I shall talk more abt that the next time.
*Burps...* Very full. Just 2 of us.. and so much food. a WHOLE table filled with it... But thanks, it chased the Monday blues away. Far far away...
On the topic of food, I shall dedicate this post to DESERTS. And to you, whom I said I'll load all the pics up! Here they are!
Deserts. I usually have them with you you you. We just happen to always have desert after a meal right? " )
AND this is my fav. It's called HAZLENUT ROYAL. It's layers of waffles with hazlenut cream topped with choc ice cream. It's tastes reali awesome. And at the side, there's mango.
The simple RED BEAN, SWEET CORN. U love the red bean, I love the sweet corn. Just nice.
And here's both our fav! RED RUBIES! real chestnut wrapped in jelly like coatings!
FRUTTI-TUTTI - from GELARE! Beautiful!
My first cotton candy after like 6 years. Honey dew flavoured. I like cotton candy.
Sammy with our FRIED MARS BAR... It's hmmm sticky and sweeet and hmm i dun think we ll eat it anytime soon . haha if you get what i mean. It's reali soooo sweeet, you wan loads of water and tea.
Went with colleagues for dinner and had it at CAFE CARTEL... hawaiian pork chops. Enuff for 2 of me. It's HUGE. Can just think of someone who would reali like to have that. haha.. I on the other hand could onli finish 2 slabs of those.
But its highly reccommendable. No kidding.
Another one of my dinner menu. SPARE RIBS... i think im reali bad at cuttin this up. What with all the cutting and all, i think i gt finger cramps from it. And i was full after eating like half of it, coz i was so tired from cuttin it all up!
BAKER'S INNZ.. ...sumatra coffeee cake. It looks absolutely sinful and tastes it too.
And here's how the insides look like!
Sudddenly thought of Crystal Jade. I shall talk more abt that the next time.
Saturday, October 28, 2006
Just reached home... 11pm. errgh.. so blardy shagged. Have been shagged everyday since .. ermm like yesterday. Reached home and then conked out straight away... and feel like conking out now as well.
Owe quite a few ppl some little things here and there. Tonics...a few promises, some bets here and there.. .. blog posts with pics... (its comin, its comin!*).. my lunch... *where's it.. gettin white hairs already la*
A few updates about the past week,
Gt back to work after the long hols, long hols are bad man. .makes one feel so lethargic....luckily gt this gal to sms me. Touched by the warmness of strangers too. Makes the cynical me rethink, maybe people are good too. Was walkin in the rain, when i gt an offer to share an umbrella from a total stranger, no less. The bus driver who asked me if Im good and if I had dinner. So nice. The guy in the same lift as me, who took the effort to pause his conversation to smile and say to me, "have a good night!" Where can you get this man..
Could it be that IMF has reali made us more all into smiley and kind hearted creatures? haha.. I wish.
Tis the season to clear leaves. Have you all cleared yours? And its gg to be end of the month soon. Currently, crazy about all songs, gooong.
I just found a new toy. Just ask anyone ard. My matt black, velvety feel existin mobile phone.
What I really want now. A fantastic dream which makes me feel. That's what I want now.
Owe quite a few ppl some little things here and there. Tonics...a few promises, some bets here and there.. .. blog posts with pics... (its comin, its comin!*).. my lunch... *where's it.. gettin white hairs already la*
A few updates about the past week,
Gt back to work after the long hols, long hols are bad man. .makes one feel so lethargic....luckily gt this gal to sms me. Touched by the warmness of strangers too. Makes the cynical me rethink, maybe people are good too. Was walkin in the rain, when i gt an offer to share an umbrella from a total stranger, no less. The bus driver who asked me if Im good and if I had dinner. So nice. The guy in the same lift as me, who took the effort to pause his conversation to smile and say to me, "have a good night!" Where can you get this man..
Could it be that IMF has reali made us more all into smiley and kind hearted creatures? haha.. I wish.
Tis the season to clear leaves. Have you all cleared yours? And its gg to be end of the month soon. Currently, crazy about all songs, gooong.
I just found a new toy. Just ask anyone ard. My matt black, velvety feel existin mobile phone.
What I really want now. A fantastic dream which makes me feel. That's what I want now.
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
Went KTV with the Dan, Lychee & Siwei... the first one I had with them in months.... hahah.. Im glad i changed my mind in the end. Everything was good, the soya chicken rice was good, the "kong ba pau" was good, (in case ur wondering when did KBox start serving baos... its compliments of lychee!), the songs were good and the company was good too.
I m not sure when it started. I think it was a year ago, almost I guess. I started listening carefully to song lyrics. I used to just hum along and sing. But nowadays I reali listen and think about it. That's why some songs I like so much more. .. it's all in the lyrics. Just like this season's 光良's new song. I think I understand what they write about now.
On that note, you know a lot of those chinese shows? They always show the leads saying things like, "it doesnt matter who the person chooses to be with... what matters is that the person is happy" When I was younger, I used to always laugh at it and say, how can anyone be so noble. I laughed at it for a few years more and then this year, I did it. The irony of it all.
These days I just want the person to be happy. Somethings I always keep in my heart. You know I ve a friend whose life motto is ' Say it if you feel it' Easier said than done. Such a brave gal. I think if I did that, a part of my life would be in chaos. haha. But I also understand that some things, once missed cannot be gotton back. That's how fragile everything is. In this less than a hundred years of life, being able to find someone who makes you feel a myraid of intensified feelings is ...well.. how should I put it.... it's just the way it is. Not too sure, how it's gg to be like in the future but now, knowing that the person is happy and all is enough. Coz sometimes one of the worst feelings in the world is the kind where you know the person you care about is in pain and hurt and yet you can do nothing about it. You can neither be near nor around. So, maybe I m not that noble afterall. I just want to spare myself that sort of feelings. It doesnt matter who the person is with anymore, just be happy and safe and sound.
I m not sure when it started. I think it was a year ago, almost I guess. I started listening carefully to song lyrics. I used to just hum along and sing. But nowadays I reali listen and think about it. That's why some songs I like so much more. .. it's all in the lyrics. Just like this season's 光良's new song. I think I understand what they write about now.
On that note, you know a lot of those chinese shows? They always show the leads saying things like, "it doesnt matter who the person chooses to be with... what matters is that the person is happy" When I was younger, I used to always laugh at it and say, how can anyone be so noble. I laughed at it for a few years more and then this year, I did it. The irony of it all.
These days I just want the person to be happy. Somethings I always keep in my heart. You know I ve a friend whose life motto is ' Say it if you feel it' Easier said than done. Such a brave gal. I think if I did that, a part of my life would be in chaos. haha. But I also understand that some things, once missed cannot be gotton back. That's how fragile everything is. In this less than a hundred years of life, being able to find someone who makes you feel a myraid of intensified feelings is ...well.. how should I put it.... it's just the way it is. Not too sure, how it's gg to be like in the future but now, knowing that the person is happy and all is enough. Coz sometimes one of the worst feelings in the world is the kind where you know the person you care about is in pain and hurt and yet you can do nothing about it. You can neither be near nor around. So, maybe I m not that noble afterall. I just want to spare myself that sort of feelings. It doesnt matter who the person is with anymore, just be happy and safe and sound.
Sunday, October 15, 2006
Im feeling oddly restless and fidgidty for a Sunday. It's very hazy today. Last night as I was walking to the train station, I strolled along Orchard Road by myself under the hazy night sky. For a moment, I felt peaceful.
But of course, peacefulness always gets shattered. hahah It's almost like the true meanin of life.
I blog. I think alot. And of course, for many of you who know me, you would have known that I diary as well. I diary everyday. About the innermost feelings I feel which I may never tell anyone. About what I do, what I want to do.
On this boring Sunday, I decided to re-read all my entries.. beginning from Feburary. It seems that Im grappling with the same issues everyday now that I look at my entries closely. It seems that an aspect of my life is locked in that particular age where I simply cannot move on. Or rather DID NOT move on. It must be the case since everyday, I write a little about it.
Hmm current state of mood: confused and lost and duno where to start with everything. It seems my thoughts are a shimmery watery glob of mess in my brain. I think it reflects the state of my room and wardrobe. haha.. After knowing this, it must seem easy then. To sort out my thoughts. Just pack my room. But of course, there's the catch in this somewhere.
Me, being the sentimental chap I am, cannot bear to throw some stuff out. And more importantly, I cant muster enuff energy to get my butt off the chair to move around.
I want to sweat. Where you pant and you can feel ur heart go "thump, thump, thump" while you try and catch your breath knowing you ve put ur body through some exertion. The shimmery sheen of sweat on ur skin and damp hair. And for that short moment, adreline and endorphines rushes through you and you believe you can conquer all.
I think I shall go skip rope.
But of course, peacefulness always gets shattered. hahah It's almost like the true meanin of life.
I blog. I think alot. And of course, for many of you who know me, you would have known that I diary as well. I diary everyday. About the innermost feelings I feel which I may never tell anyone. About what I do, what I want to do.
On this boring Sunday, I decided to re-read all my entries.. beginning from Feburary. It seems that Im grappling with the same issues everyday now that I look at my entries closely. It seems that an aspect of my life is locked in that particular age where I simply cannot move on. Or rather DID NOT move on. It must be the case since everyday, I write a little about it.
Hmm current state of mood: confused and lost and duno where to start with everything. It seems my thoughts are a shimmery watery glob of mess in my brain. I think it reflects the state of my room and wardrobe. haha.. After knowing this, it must seem easy then. To sort out my thoughts. Just pack my room. But of course, there's the catch in this somewhere.
Me, being the sentimental chap I am, cannot bear to throw some stuff out. And more importantly, I cant muster enuff energy to get my butt off the chair to move around.
I want to sweat. Where you pant and you can feel ur heart go "thump, thump, thump" while you try and catch your breath knowing you ve put ur body through some exertion. The shimmery sheen of sweat on ur skin and damp hair. And for that short moment, adreline and endorphines rushes through you and you believe you can conquer all.
I think I shall go skip rope.
Saturday, October 14, 2006
U ll never guess where i am now.
TIME: 5AM
Im up at work in my office. Yes, u got that right. Im at work. After a series of meetings and talks with people around, it was supper time. And then back to work and THEN... i realised I had wireless in my workplace!! I tell you, it completely perked me up! Im so gg to like comin to work like 200% more. Im SERIOUS. It's not like i dun like to come to work on normal days. I still like it. BUT now i LOve it. See me online more often now man.
I have 93.3 playing in the background. There's nobody online now. Unfortunately.
I reali think I ve got super wide exposure in my current job and the experience accumulated is seriously one that cannot be gotten elsewhere in terms of groundwork and communication skills. Anyway, now im in a terribly good mood coz i found out there's internet connection. Such an internet junkie i am can. ... I wish there were people awake now for me to gush to.
And admist everything, Im still worried for a particular someone.
AND im blardy awake now. Thankyew to whoever for the internet connection.
TIME: 5AM
Im up at work in my office. Yes, u got that right. Im at work. After a series of meetings and talks with people around, it was supper time. And then back to work and THEN... i realised I had wireless in my workplace!! I tell you, it completely perked me up! Im so gg to like comin to work like 200% more. Im SERIOUS. It's not like i dun like to come to work on normal days. I still like it. BUT now i LOve it. See me online more often now man.
I have 93.3 playing in the background. There's nobody online now. Unfortunately.
I reali think I ve got super wide exposure in my current job and the experience accumulated is seriously one that cannot be gotten elsewhere in terms of groundwork and communication skills. Anyway, now im in a terribly good mood coz i found out there's internet connection. Such an internet junkie i am can. ... I wish there were people awake now for me to gush to.
And admist everything, Im still worried for a particular someone.
AND im blardy awake now. Thankyew to whoever for the internet connection.
Friday, October 13, 2006
I heard the most heart-wrenching voice I ve ever heard in aeons today. It (e voice) sounded so sad that it made all my protective instincts jump to life. I din even know I had such instincts until I felt them. I ve been through it all, and so from the bottom of my heart, I pray that you will not experience what I ve experienced. I would never want you to ever experience that sort of pain.
On a side note, I was so happy to see Jingsi online this afternoon. Why? I also duno. hahha It's like a friend is online in the afternoon! I came home in the afternoon to sleep coz I have to go back to work in the night like 12am to abt 8 plus in the morning. Need to settle some stuff. So any dears who are reading this within the time period, pls send me a joke or 2 to keep me entertained throughout pls. hahha
And these days I v e been doing A LOT of quizzes. Just for fun! It's like a habit to talk to Ms gal-with-long-name. *grinz* and do all these fun quizzes at the same time. Hey! We r suppose to hit the gym together right. Dun forget k. haha I reali hope it's US hitting the gym and not the gym hitting us in the end.
Here are some which I ve done tonight!
On a side note, I was so happy to see Jingsi online this afternoon. Why? I also duno. hahha It's like a friend is online in the afternoon! I came home in the afternoon to sleep coz I have to go back to work in the night like 12am to abt 8 plus in the morning. Need to settle some stuff. So any dears who are reading this within the time period, pls send me a joke or 2 to keep me entertained throughout pls. hahha
And these days I v e been doing A LOT of quizzes. Just for fun! It's like a habit to talk to Ms gal-with-long-name. *grinz* and do all these fun quizzes at the same time. Hey! We r suppose to hit the gym together right. Dun forget k. haha I reali hope it's US hitting the gym and not the gym hitting us in the end.
Here are some which I ve done tonight!
| You Are 64% Feminine, 36% Masculine |
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Are You Masculine or Feminine?
| You Are a Chimera |
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What Mythological Creature Are You?
I went to watch SCOOP today. Highly recommended. There's loads of witty conversations inside and Woody Allen is indeed very good. Very good indeed.
*WARNING: contains spoilers. Read beyond this line @ ur own risk*
The show is about the chance-meeting of a journalist wannabe student with a deceased famous reporter. Apparently after the famous reporter died and went on to the nether world, he met the secretary of this rich man (played by Hugh Jackman) who believed she was poisoned to death coz she was getting leads on the fact that the rich man may in fact be the "tarot card murderer".
Now, it would not do for a rich man to be implicated in such a scheme right. And I think I forgot to mention that the rich man, (oh btw, his name is peter lyman, from now on i shall refer to him as such) is actually quite a well known figure in politics as well.
I go on. This deceased reporter cannot give up such a good piece of tibit that at the end he die die must let someone know abt this, so he escaped from the netherworld and met Sandra( the wannabe reporter) to let her get the SCOOP on the story.
Woody Allen is Sandra's cute and wacky side kick.
To cut a long story short, Sandra met Peter. Peter met Sandra.
Sandra's purpose is to get the story right first before getting it published and so her aim was to get close to Peter lyman. But coz he's just so blardy handsome and all, she falls in love with him and in the end realise he is a lying, murderous jerk.
Ok, that kinda sums it all.
5 stars. And all for Woody allen's soo very very very *that's 3 verys* witty conversations! And Hugh Jackman's wonderfully broad shoulders and chiselled features. I swear there was a collective gasps when he appeared on screen.
He has such broad dependable-looking shoulders. Irresistable!
Thursday, October 12, 2006
These days, im trying to put things in perspective.
I always tell myself to regulate my breathing.. coz sometimes it gets a bit hindered when i think of some things. It's like...relax , chill, be cool.
That's why i ask the greater powers to bestow on me the ability to see the humor in all situations.
And have i ever mentioned, I reali hate templates? They all sound so impersonal and and..cold. That's the word. COLD.
Oh, btw, i just gt alittle pissed off so now im just rambling.
Work is good so far. With all the social events and progress. Ithink my drinking index is up one notch. I m doing smth i like also on some other days. And somemore. These make me happy. And im happy with the huge number of different ppl I speak to each day. They make me see that there's a diff kind of world out there too.
Ok, im very abrupt. Suddenly I dun feel what I felt when I started to blog.
People change dun they? I used to like msging a lot? Now i dun. I rather just call and talk reali.
O well, daaaaaan, im sure everything will be smooth for u. And it must be tough running between places and all. Take good care of yourself so that u have energy to take good care of others too. <-- Tt's horoscope reading for Thursday. " ) And rem my colleague who was in hospital too for an op? I heard fish soup is reali good for recovery.
To pretty gal in Aussie, I reali love talkin to u coz sometimes u just tell me the most real and honest thing. Its nice hearing it from someone else. LIke come on.. wake up right. And NO, u shouldnt talk or hint anything abt it here ok!!! Looking fwd to ur return! I ll show u pictures!
To hugalicious babe in Singapore, I m sure u ll find ur dream job soon k. Just be cool abt it and get hints from ur vibes. hahah Or worse come to worst, i told u already, u just go and write a book and let's get rich together. haha good idea not?
To mr andy, I just wana say thank you to him here too. why? Coz i think i ve been imposing on him a little these days. Always whining abt things without reali letting him know what;s reali happening. But i reali cant say. BUT the feelings are true. The lousy feelings that is. MY lousy feelings. But good lor, he's always telling me practical stuff and all so I get so busy thinking abt his views and debating that i forget my jealous, lousy, sad feelings. heeee.. better than nothing albeit its an unusual way of distracting someone.
To the NTUMarket, yea meeting again soon. Looking fwd too.
To the rest of the people who dun give me good vibes? Good riddance to bad rubbish. Goodbye goodbye goodbye. put all of u on the mooooooooooon. OUt of sight, out of mind. hahah
*~ smth good is gg to happen soon~*
I always tell myself to regulate my breathing.. coz sometimes it gets a bit hindered when i think of some things. It's like...relax , chill, be cool.
That's why i ask the greater powers to bestow on me the ability to see the humor in all situations.
And have i ever mentioned, I reali hate templates? They all sound so impersonal and and..cold. That's the word. COLD.
Oh, btw, i just gt alittle pissed off so now im just rambling.
Work is good so far. With all the social events and progress. Ithink my drinking index is up one notch. I m doing smth i like also on some other days. And somemore. These make me happy. And im happy with the huge number of different ppl I speak to each day. They make me see that there's a diff kind of world out there too.
Ok, im very abrupt. Suddenly I dun feel what I felt when I started to blog.
People change dun they? I used to like msging a lot? Now i dun. I rather just call and talk reali.
O well, daaaaaan, im sure everything will be smooth for u. And it must be tough running between places and all. Take good care of yourself so that u have energy to take good care of others too. <-- Tt's horoscope reading for Thursday. " ) And rem my colleague who was in hospital too for an op? I heard fish soup is reali good for recovery.
To pretty gal in Aussie, I reali love talkin to u coz sometimes u just tell me the most real and honest thing. Its nice hearing it from someone else. LIke come on.. wake up right. And NO, u shouldnt talk or hint anything abt it here ok!!! Looking fwd to ur return! I ll show u pictures!
To hugalicious babe in Singapore, I m sure u ll find ur dream job soon k. Just be cool abt it and get hints from ur vibes. hahah Or worse come to worst, i told u already, u just go and write a book and let's get rich together. haha good idea not?
To mr andy, I just wana say thank you to him here too. why? Coz i think i ve been imposing on him a little these days. Always whining abt things without reali letting him know what;s reali happening. But i reali cant say. BUT the feelings are true. The lousy feelings that is. MY lousy feelings. But good lor, he's always telling me practical stuff and all so I get so busy thinking abt his views and debating that i forget my jealous, lousy, sad feelings. heeee.. better than nothing albeit its an unusual way of distracting someone.
To the NTUMarket, yea meeting again soon. Looking fwd too.
To the rest of the people who dun give me good vibes? Good riddance to bad rubbish. Goodbye goodbye goodbye. put all of u on the mooooooooooon. OUt of sight, out of mind. hahah
*~ smth good is gg to happen soon~*
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
Yea.. tml is Thursday already. So happy.
Some body should just spank me. Sometimes I feel so smoothered with care and concern that I feel a little suffocated. At those times, I wish I had a little pent house somewhere with nice flowers all around and cool breeze. Then maybe I will go there and camp like 2 days or so. Wouldnt that be nice!
I think we should all pool money and buy a house somewhere in a nice area lidat. haha so now it's ALL of OUR house. Then anytime we feel troubled and smoothered and all, we can pack our bags and just go there. Then if by chance we meet each other there, that will be a nice surprise!! yea.
I m always so busy being nice and diplomatic and mature and understanding @ work so much so that when I come home, I wana be a little gal over again and throw tantrums and jump around and shout and be ridiculous and talk about silly things. Slack around and discuss some of the ridiculous ppl I meet.
Im reading this book by PAOLO COELHO which talks all about the goodness of LOVE. It's all very holistic. Let me share smth inside.
"You have to take risks. We will only understand the miracle of life fully when we allow the unexpected to happen"
Share more when im done with the book. The title btw is BY THE RIVER PIEDRA I SAT DOWN AND WEPT
Some body should just spank me. Sometimes I feel so smoothered with care and concern that I feel a little suffocated. At those times, I wish I had a little pent house somewhere with nice flowers all around and cool breeze. Then maybe I will go there and camp like 2 days or so. Wouldnt that be nice!
I think we should all pool money and buy a house somewhere in a nice area lidat. haha so now it's ALL of OUR house. Then anytime we feel troubled and smoothered and all, we can pack our bags and just go there. Then if by chance we meet each other there, that will be a nice surprise!! yea.
I m always so busy being nice and diplomatic and mature and understanding @ work so much so that when I come home, I wana be a little gal over again and throw tantrums and jump around and shout and be ridiculous and talk about silly things. Slack around and discuss some of the ridiculous ppl I meet.
Im reading this book by PAOLO COELHO which talks all about the goodness of LOVE. It's all very holistic. Let me share smth inside.
"You have to take risks. We will only understand the miracle of life fully when we allow the unexpected to happen"
Share more when im done with the book. The title btw is BY THE RIVER PIEDRA I SAT DOWN AND WEPT
Sunday, October 08, 2006
Missing.
Wanting to call.
Yet afraid.
So i read and go to bed.
Coward.
Missing.
Seeing
Wanting a hug.
Yet afraid.
So i smile and banter.
Coward.
Wanting to call.
Yet afraid.
So i read and go to bed.
Coward.
Missing.
Seeing
Wanting a hug.
Yet afraid.
So i smile and banter.
Coward.
Friday, October 06, 2006
Touched today. By a simple gesture. That little gesture that says, dun worry im sure u ll be fine. Thank you.
Touched today. Touched by the way my dad goes around looking for that particular box of mooncake coz i mentioned i like the box. The realisation that someone loves you that much is a very humbling experience.
Touched today. Touched that my mummy is asking me to go out more at the expense of family time coz she says she wans me to be able to enjoy my friends as well.
Touched that there is this friend who is always there to offer me a hug. The friend who always says "come, why is the world so mean, come, I give you a Hug."A hug says it all. When nothing can express it. Touch does it.
The little brother that sometimes behave like an elder brother to me. Askin me to eat at proper times, bathe early, sleep more...
Touched today. Touched by the way my dad goes around looking for that particular box of mooncake coz i mentioned i like the box. The realisation that someone loves you that much is a very humbling experience.
Touched today. Touched that my mummy is asking me to go out more at the expense of family time coz she says she wans me to be able to enjoy my friends as well.
Touched that there is this friend who is always there to offer me a hug. The friend who always says "come, why is the world so mean, come, I give you a Hug."A hug says it all. When nothing can express it. Touch does it.
The little brother that sometimes behave like an elder brother to me. Askin me to eat at proper times, bathe early, sleep more...
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
This line keeps running through my head the whole day. Even when im so totally busy with work, or running ard checking on stuff. "It will come with its own set of problems" It's so very true. And of course, I always appreciate honest comments. ahha.. I cant help it la.. I keep thinking of it. And for once, I think ur quite right. And its a new feeling. The feeling that ur quite right. haha
And so , if everthing is going to come with its own set of problems, pls let the greater powers bestow on me the ability to see the humour in every situation and to influence others to see it as well!
I had a dream last night. A very real dream. My fears are always translated into dreams at one point or another. But strangely enuff, I wake up more grounded to reality and happy to a certain extent. It's reali quite theraputic in a way. About a month and a half ago, I had a dream of the same sort as well, it's like a "wake up ur idea dream" where you see urself seeing things you dun like AND dun wan to see. But seeing it is like a stab to ur heart, cold water to the soul and things like that. And if you think seeing such things in ur dreams is diff from real life, ur wrong. The intensity of the feelings in both cases do not change at all. The intensity of the feelings felt are as strong, if not stronger. BUT the good thing is it's in ur dreams.
It rejuvenates me.
And so , if everthing is going to come with its own set of problems, pls let the greater powers bestow on me the ability to see the humour in every situation and to influence others to see it as well!
I had a dream last night. A very real dream. My fears are always translated into dreams at one point or another. But strangely enuff, I wake up more grounded to reality and happy to a certain extent. It's reali quite theraputic in a way. About a month and a half ago, I had a dream of the same sort as well, it's like a "wake up ur idea dream" where you see urself seeing things you dun like AND dun wan to see. But seeing it is like a stab to ur heart, cold water to the soul and things like that. And if you think seeing such things in ur dreams is diff from real life, ur wrong. The intensity of the feelings in both cases do not change at all. The intensity of the feelings felt are as strong, if not stronger. BUT the good thing is it's in ur dreams.
It rejuvenates me.
Monday, October 02, 2006
Went to watch THE BANQUET just now starring Zhang Ziyi, Daniel Wu & Zhou xun. It's a starry cast. Found the show to be quite bland actually but im glad someone else enjoyed it. " )
It was yet again a show about people getting consumed by their desires to rise to the throne and of course there's always the element of lust. The 美人 or 江山？ Dilemma right. haha.. But in the end, emperors always fall under the spell of 美人s. In lust we trust. haha
These power struggles always end up with everyone dead coz they were CONSUMED BY THE FLAMES OF DESIRE. Either desire for money, the woman, the man, the kingdom, the list goes on. Now, its called CONSUMED by the flames of desire for a reason. Why not DISTURBED or let's say LICKED by the flames of desire. Why CONSUME?
Coz desire swallows a person whole and in chinese, 把他吃掉。 Thus consumed. ha ,makes sense not?
On this note, I guess everyone should have some fundamental principles which one holds dear to them. And fundamental principles dun change no matter what the situations.
*ok, actually in the next paragraph i was gg to share my own personal fundamental beliefs. But i got distracted and now gt no mood to talk abt things like my fundamental principles. And coz im coughing like nobody's business too. Let's call it a night*
It was yet again a show about people getting consumed by their desires to rise to the throne and of course there's always the element of lust. The 美人 or 江山？ Dilemma right. haha.. But in the end, emperors always fall under the spell of 美人s. In lust we trust. haha
These power struggles always end up with everyone dead coz they were CONSUMED BY THE FLAMES OF DESIRE. Either desire for money, the woman, the man, the kingdom, the list goes on. Now, its called CONSUMED by the flames of desire for a reason. Why not DISTURBED or let's say LICKED by the flames of desire. Why CONSUME?
Coz desire swallows a person whole and in chinese, 把他吃掉。 Thus consumed. ha ,makes sense not?
On this note, I guess everyone should have some fundamental principles which one holds dear to them. And fundamental principles dun change no matter what the situations.
*ok, actually in the next paragraph i was gg to share my own personal fundamental beliefs. But i got distracted and now gt no mood to talk abt things like my fundamental principles. And coz im coughing like nobody's business too. Let's call it a night*
Sunday, October 01, 2006
Falling in love is just that - falling
Out of control, in ur heart and ur soul
Falling in love is just that- falling
Thats how it feels, falling head over heels.
Why love when love hurts
Why love when love ends
I know how it feels when it turns and pretends
It ends with the pain
And the making of ends
Why love when there's peace
In the making of friends
Losing your heart is just that - losing
Too high a cost
When it's given its lost
Takin a risk is just that - taking
With every fall , i cant take anymore
There are quite a few songs in The Forbidden City which managed to get my tear ducts moving. and the above is just one of the songs. I especially like the lyrics, its thought-provoking and should some say, very relevant to a lot of ppl.
True isnt it?
I thought abt it.
Why love when love hurts? - Coz at the end of the day, just meeting the right one will make u so much more happier. The rewards transcends the rest.
Why love when love ends - Coz when one door closes, another opens.
I paused this post to go bathe. When in the bath, a parallel comparison came to me. *haha for those who still do not know, i think a lot when im bathing*
If you say, why love when love hurts, its like sayin why live when life suxs. haah can we say that? On the other hand we have songs that says, love coz its the most splendid thing on earth. It's what separates us from all, LOVE. Life too, is a splendid journey to be taken with the people you love. ha.. guess there's always 2 sides to a coin.
Love, Hate
Darkness and light
Black and white
Truth and lies.
My take is, its all how you react to things. When you fall, wipe the blood, put a plaster on and then move on. Find people who will tend to ur wound and lend you a helpin hand.
hahah ahhh sounds so ideal. But is it reali?
Out of control, in ur heart and ur soul
Falling in love is just that- falling
Thats how it feels, falling head over heels.
Why love when love hurts
Why love when love ends
I know how it feels when it turns and pretends
It ends with the pain
And the making of ends
Why love when there's peace
In the making of friends
Losing your heart is just that - losing
Too high a cost
When it's given its lost
Takin a risk is just that - taking
With every fall , i cant take anymore
There are quite a few songs in The Forbidden City which managed to get my tear ducts moving. and the above is just one of the songs. I especially like the lyrics, its thought-provoking and should some say, very relevant to a lot of ppl.
True isnt it?
I thought abt it.
Why love when love hurts? - Coz at the end of the day, just meeting the right one will make u so much more happier. The rewards transcends the rest.
Why love when love ends - Coz when one door closes, another opens.
I paused this post to go bathe. When in the bath, a parallel comparison came to me. *haha for those who still do not know, i think a lot when im bathing*
If you say, why love when love hurts, its like sayin why live when life suxs. haah can we say that? On the other hand we have songs that says, love coz its the most splendid thing on earth. It's what separates us from all, LOVE. Life too, is a splendid journey to be taken with the people you love. ha.. guess there's always 2 sides to a coin.
Love, Hate
Darkness and light
Black and white
Truth and lies.
My take is, its all how you react to things. When you fall, wipe the blood, put a plaster on and then move on. Find people who will tend to ur wound and lend you a helpin hand.
hahah ahhh sounds so ideal. But is it reali?