HAPPY....
HAPPY?
HAPPY!
Happii.....
Happy.
posted by Princess Flowerbloom at 11:35 AM
Wednesday, August 30, 2006
ALWAYS TELLING YOU THINGS I DUN REALI MEAN.. BLARDY .. HELL.. I MUST AND HAVE TO BE MORE HONEST WITH YOU.. SHITTY... ARGH... actually is no guts.
Monday, August 28, 2006
You know what I think?
I think Korean Shows are made to turn rational gals like me into crybabies. I turned up at work today with more swollen eyes than usual and a heavy head.
I think watching 1 whole korean show will deteriorate my perfect eyesight coz it makes me cry so much. I can watch all kind of sob story, china shows? ENGLISH show? Taiwan? Hongkong? BUt just play a Korean one infront of me and Im a lost case.
The last korean show i watched was "Stairways to heaven" and I think I needed a pail to contain the water lost. After that, I swore I ll never watch another Korean show coz its too tired to cry when there's so many things in real life to cry about anyway.
But here I am at it again. I just find Korean shows soooooooo sad.. its like a tragic setup.
The front parts are always so farnie. But reali, its just a scam to get us to cry harder.
Ithink I need a change of pillow soon as well. Reali, I shouldnt be watching Korean shows at all. I shouldnt. It brings back memories. Loads of it. I shouldnt. I shouldnt. I shouldnt.
I think Korean Shows are made to turn rational gals like me into crybabies. I turned up at work today with more swollen eyes than usual and a heavy head.
I think watching 1 whole korean show will deteriorate my perfect eyesight coz it makes me cry so much. I can watch all kind of sob story, china shows? ENGLISH show? Taiwan? Hongkong? BUt just play a Korean one infront of me and Im a lost case.
The last korean show i watched was "Stairways to heaven" and I think I needed a pail to contain the water lost. After that, I swore I ll never watch another Korean show coz its too tired to cry when there's so many things in real life to cry about anyway.
But here I am at it again. I just find Korean shows soooooooo sad.. its like a tragic setup.
The front parts are always so farnie. But reali, its just a scam to get us to cry harder.
Ithink I need a change of pillow soon as well. Reali, I shouldnt be watching Korean shows at all. I shouldnt. It brings back memories. Loads of it. I shouldnt. I shouldnt. I shouldnt.
Sunday, August 27, 2006
I think in the whole week, I walked the most today. In high heels , no less. So many traffic lights along the way. I stopped when there's a red man. And i crossed when the green man flashes. It's all so routine. And sometimes a waste of time too I feel. But I always try not to jay walk. Reali. Unless you really drag me along.
We din wana cross when there was a red man coz we were afraid of what might happen. At least that's what she told me. I think deep down i agree with her.
Just like how I dun know whether to love or to hate. Its so hard to love you and so hard to hate you too. How to? Like a deep deep well, even have pail also no use. hahah
It's like a prisoner's dilemma for those who take econs. Either way, its a lose-lose situation. I lose. haha Sometimes its bright and cheery like the sun and sometimes its dark as dark can be. But we know the bright and cheery moments but onli I know the dark as dark can be moments.
Some things, how to share? Like maybe chocolates, chips, clothes and bags are okie. Taxi fares are good for sharing too. " P But weirdly when i always take the late night taxi with her, we always kana cheated. The uncle goes one big round and charges us more.
Fair or not fair?? hahha Who bloody hell told you the world was fair.
Last time someone said the world was flat. Look what happened. It turned out to be ROUND.
I like my coffee black with onli a spoonful of sugar.
I like my tea without milk.
I like to think when im bathing.
I like the stars in the night sky.
I like surprises (which are different from shocks of course)
I like Wong Li Hom.
On this note, he's comin to SIngapore on the 21st Oct. ANyone interested?? Concert!
We din wana cross when there was a red man coz we were afraid of what might happen. At least that's what she told me. I think deep down i agree with her.
Just like how I dun know whether to love or to hate. Its so hard to love you and so hard to hate you too. How to? Like a deep deep well, even have pail also no use. hahah
It's like a prisoner's dilemma for those who take econs. Either way, its a lose-lose situation. I lose. haha Sometimes its bright and cheery like the sun and sometimes its dark as dark can be. But we know the bright and cheery moments but onli I know the dark as dark can be moments.
Some things, how to share? Like maybe chocolates, chips, clothes and bags are okie. Taxi fares are good for sharing too. " P But weirdly when i always take the late night taxi with her, we always kana cheated. The uncle goes one big round and charges us more.
Fair or not fair?? hahha Who bloody hell told you the world was fair.
Last time someone said the world was flat. Look what happened. It turned out to be ROUND.
I like my coffee black with onli a spoonful of sugar.
I like my tea without milk.
I like to think when im bathing.
I like the stars in the night sky.
I like surprises (which are different from shocks of course)
I like Wong Li Hom.
On this note, he's comin to SIngapore on the 21st Oct. ANyone interested?? Concert!
Saturday, August 26, 2006
You are overseas....
Nah.
Im just pretending. A lot a lot.
Nah.
Im just pretending. A lot a lot.
Friday, August 25, 2006
It's just the presence. Companionable Silence. NOt everyone can give you that, only your most loved ones. The feeling is unforgettable.
*good night*
*good night*
Thursday, August 24, 2006
A very very extremely loooong day today. More than 10 hours @ work.
HE made an appearance today. My heart went thump, thump, thump as he said his words.
Simply said, its gg to be very exciting times. Very very exciting. And if all goes according to plan, we ll all be in a shock. But of course, just dont let the sales drop. Was a bit overwhelmed that I couldnt eat dinner and had to go and lie down for 1 hour after that. But contradictingly, always feel a little reasurred when he's ard and yet, such exciting things always happen.
And in the midst of all the hustle and bustle, Im quietly thinking of you at times.
HE made an appearance today. My heart went thump, thump, thump as he said his words.
Simply said, its gg to be very exciting times. Very very exciting. And if all goes according to plan, we ll all be in a shock. But of course, just dont let the sales drop. Was a bit overwhelmed that I couldnt eat dinner and had to go and lie down for 1 hour after that. But contradictingly, always feel a little reasurred when he's ard and yet, such exciting things always happen.
And in the midst of all the hustle and bustle, Im quietly thinking of you at times.
Wednesday, August 23, 2006
Love you, Miss you, Need you... ** One week more ~ . . ..
*she goes a dreamin~
*she goes a dreamin~
Monday, August 21, 2006
Today din feel like MOnday. It felt like ALL the Mondays squeeeeeezed together! Since when did I have so much work to do in a single day???
I was sooooo sooo sooo very tired when i reached home then the first thing I did was to take a 2 hour nap. without dinner.
To someone whom im not very close with, here are my heartfelt words, haha the person will never get to read this anyway BUt here goes. I reali pity you. Big time. Im reali sorry our paths had to meet this way. Hmm what they call this? A kind of karma? But im reali sorry, I reali do pity you at some points. We are not the same and we will never be the same. We lead a different kind of life. I wish you well in yours. But yes, we r not the same, not now, not in the past and not in the future.
The IN word for me now is REVAMP, revamp, REVAMP.
The first little step in doing that is to be CLUTTER-FREE. Easy to say, hard to do. For people who know me, my room is literally like an archive museum. HAHA. And just rambling on randomly, I need to go do smth about my hair sooon. It's so easy to just let it grow into the whole messy bunch of ya.. hair.
And lessons from work: Actually A LOT of ppl do not have a life. Quite sad. Let us all pls not fall trap to this. I have a new game addiction.
I was sooooo sooo sooo very tired when i reached home then the first thing I did was to take a 2 hour nap. without dinner.
To someone whom im not very close with, here are my heartfelt words, haha the person will never get to read this anyway BUt here goes. I reali pity you. Big time. Im reali sorry our paths had to meet this way. Hmm what they call this? A kind of karma? But im reali sorry, I reali do pity you at some points. We are not the same and we will never be the same. We lead a different kind of life. I wish you well in yours. But yes, we r not the same, not now, not in the past and not in the future.
The IN word for me now is REVAMP, revamp, REVAMP.
The first little step in doing that is to be CLUTTER-FREE. Easy to say, hard to do. For people who know me, my room is literally like an archive museum. HAHA. And just rambling on randomly, I need to go do smth about my hair sooon. It's so easy to just let it grow into the whole messy bunch of ya.. hair.
And lessons from work: Actually A LOT of ppl do not have a life. Quite sad. Let us all pls not fall trap to this. I have a new game addiction.
I wished the equation could be balanced.
Coz no matter which way i look at it,
I feel like I ve lost.
Maybe Im wrong. Or maybe Im right.
Im always jumping to conclusions.
But its never gg to be the same equation ever again.
Because some things can onli be lost once and then maybe u ll never get the courage to take it out again.
Coz losing is painful! *ouch*
Coz no matter which way i look at it,
I feel like I ve lost.
Maybe Im wrong. Or maybe Im right.
Im always jumping to conclusions.
But its never gg to be the same equation ever again.
Because some things can onli be lost once and then maybe u ll never get the courage to take it out again.
Coz losing is painful! *ouch*
Sunday, August 20, 2006
Busy weekdays.
The weekend i so treasure.
And so I play till a little burned out on saturday.
I spent close to the whole Sunday snoozing in bed, except for meal times.
What a way to spend the week.
The weekend i so treasure.
And so I play till a little burned out on saturday.
I spent close to the whole Sunday snoozing in bed, except for meal times.
What a way to spend the week.
Saturday, August 19, 2006
Im so tired. But i need to blog about this still coz im afraid i ll forget.
*Warning.. this is my longest blog post ever. Dun go on if you are sleepy, tired or not in the mood for sentimental stuff*
Today an incident happen which shed light upon a qn i once asked myself so very often not so long ago.
Today 2 ppl quarrelled. I asked them what happened. They said the other said smth and one party felt hurt. It was all so minor to me. I did not understand. Person A said, " I was only kidding to person B, duno why she take it so serious. No sense of humor at all." Person B said, "How could she have said that at all! It simply just shows what she is reali thinking! Person A says "But im only Kidding!!"
Then later someone told me. You know why they are like that? It's because they are too close. I was puzzled. Too close?? That someone told me, see if you said smth like that to me, I wun feel hurt coz i ll instinctively take it as a joke coz we are not close. BUT if we were to b very close, then you ll start thinking about everything i say seriously. So even if its a very little thing, it ll affect you. I ve been thinking about this the whole day.
Sometimes in the very recent past, I asked myself many times, whats happening to me? Coz i seem to get affected by the littlest things. Am i starting to get petty, I used to ask myself. I used to take things so easily. They come and they go. Its as natural as how the sun sets and rises. But then i realised its coz i cared too much. Too much so that even the littlest things could get me getting all depressed and moody and grouchy. Too much interpretation goes into that one little action the other party makes. There's such extreme highs and lows.
And maybe its just how much i enjoy exclusivity. Because I cannot imagine how you can share the same things with so many ppl. Some things you can of course. But some things you cant. Like telepathy, emotional support and affections.
And why is it that you always find it so hard to tell the ppl whom you care about the most that they matter a lot to you? Nobody ever wants to say, I need you ard alot because without you, it just feels a bit empty. And no one ever wants to say I reali love having you ard. Its like being a catus. All prickly on the outside but watery inside. Or Coz maybe we r just scared that the feeling is not mutual. Or even worse, what if it becomes a hold over you. It's like maybe the person doesnt care that much but they know you have such a soft spot for them. It's like whatever you do wun affect them much but everything they do affects you to the first degree. That would be very painful. Extremely painful indeed.
Sometimes I actually envy ppl who know how to take things for granted. It takes guts, a little bit of inconsideration as well as heck-careness to do that. They just assume that the same ppl will always be there for them, will open their arms to them and embrace them for good and for bad. Sometimes I wish I could do that too. I dun wan to have to always think that one day someone would take them away from me and so every moment i m with them, i m thankful. It's like embracing something so deeply till it hurts.
A few nights ago, smth popped into my mind. What's the difference between talking and confiding? My interpretation is that talking is very general. It's level 1. And confiding is a jump to level 8. So be glad when ur friend confides in you coz its not smth they do everyday. How well can we say we know another person until we ve had a heart to heart talk? It's all abt the feelings. And that's what counts, isnt it. Rattling of activities and daily on goings simply constitutes another kind of talking.
And as im onto this, I remembered when I was in secondary school, I used to have a girlfriend who wants to be my everything. My all should be her and only her. I should go to school with her, I should wait for her, Ishould only shower affections on her and I should only be on the best terms with her? Possesive? I used to think so. But now I think Iwas only lucky then. She had it tough. She loved me more than I loved her, ever so much. *as a friend of course* Maybe what she reali needed then was not a best friend, it was a boy friend. But even so, the depth of her feelings must be so much more than mine to have wanted us to be this way. And sometimes when I think back now, I think at times i did felt like what she did then. And then i recalled what i said to her then. So easy to say, so hard to do. But its only now that i know of course. haha..
HA and looking back at alll my archives, im not a very good blogger who can list out the things i do. Coz i simply dun categorise my stuff lidat. I ve tried, but it simply doesnt feel natural. So in the end, my posts all sound super sentimental as if im gg through a lot. But its just that I go a lot by my feelings. Everyday I evaluate my day based on the feelings I have when im gg to bed. I would love to pretend to be positive and all, which I reali am - positive , that is. But its just that I tend to get a little philosophical as well.
Aright, after all the incessant ramblings, I go back to the gist of what i was trying to blog about. Which is one will care very much about what another does when they are very close. Isnt that right? It's so stupid. It's like such a small thing. Let me give you an example from my past days. One which I sometimes keep thinking about. Because I want to understand whats wrong with me as well. It seems like such a petty thing to get angry over.
It's waiting for a phonecall. When someone promises to call and you reali do want them to call, you channel all your energy into waiting for the call. Whatever shit you are doin, you tell yourself its ok, i m gg to be able to take that call later. And then you wait an hour, 2 hours, 3 hours and then never. It's like a child who's waiting all her life for santa claus and then realising a long time later then there's no such thing.
And do you guys treat a new friend better? It's like the whole process of revealing only the nice bits to them and then getting to know them as well and then slowly building up the whole relationship. It takes time and effort. But why when ppl become closer, they dun do these kind of things anymore? There's no more discovery coz everything that can be known has been known? It's so easy not to ask anymore coz you think.. ahh.. she's lidat one la.. or he's lidat one. But sometimes its just the fact that the other party bothers to make an effort. Sometimes you think, ok sometimes I think, one fine day when im reali in deep shit, how many of the ppl I love and care about will reali throw down everything and rush to my rescue. haha.. you know, like a friend in need is a friend indeed?
Once, when I was in secondary school, *haha seems like a lot of things happend in sec school* a guy told me he loved me. Then the next week, he told my friend he loved her. 2 weeks later, we found out that he told both of us he loved us. We were pretty hurt. How could he love us both at the same time??? Then I started to hate him. And she started to hate him and now we still hate him. hahah
Im like talking about my life story here. Nah.. it's just that I feel.. hmm pensive I guess. I guess im someone who needs reassurance sometimes. I need to hear sometimes that yes, no matter what happens i ll be there for you. I simply duno how to take for granted. To me, one day it will fade away. I can always be there and I will always know but who's to say the other party will? Is this called insecurity??? That's bad right? I want exclusitivity. Is this called being selfish and possesive? Is this a bad thing too?? haha.. There's no right or wrong i guess. It's all really a judgement call. It's a balance between wanting to have it all and having it I think. Sometimes when I want to have it all, I think what happens if in wanting to have it all, you lose all. Then you become appreciative of having at least a little now. BUt when you are basking in the feel of having a little of it, you start to crave more. Such a hard balance to maintain. hahaha..
Alright.. finally my thoughts are not running quicker than i can type. That's all for the night.
*Warning.. this is my longest blog post ever. Dun go on if you are sleepy, tired or not in the mood for sentimental stuff*
Today an incident happen which shed light upon a qn i once asked myself so very often not so long ago.
Today 2 ppl quarrelled. I asked them what happened. They said the other said smth and one party felt hurt. It was all so minor to me. I did not understand. Person A said, " I was only kidding to person B, duno why she take it so serious. No sense of humor at all." Person B said, "How could she have said that at all! It simply just shows what she is reali thinking! Person A says "But im only Kidding!!"
Then later someone told me. You know why they are like that? It's because they are too close. I was puzzled. Too close?? That someone told me, see if you said smth like that to me, I wun feel hurt coz i ll instinctively take it as a joke coz we are not close. BUT if we were to b very close, then you ll start thinking about everything i say seriously. So even if its a very little thing, it ll affect you. I ve been thinking about this the whole day.
Sometimes in the very recent past, I asked myself many times, whats happening to me? Coz i seem to get affected by the littlest things. Am i starting to get petty, I used to ask myself. I used to take things so easily. They come and they go. Its as natural as how the sun sets and rises. But then i realised its coz i cared too much. Too much so that even the littlest things could get me getting all depressed and moody and grouchy. Too much interpretation goes into that one little action the other party makes. There's such extreme highs and lows.
And maybe its just how much i enjoy exclusivity. Because I cannot imagine how you can share the same things with so many ppl. Some things you can of course. But some things you cant. Like telepathy, emotional support and affections.
And why is it that you always find it so hard to tell the ppl whom you care about the most that they matter a lot to you? Nobody ever wants to say, I need you ard alot because without you, it just feels a bit empty. And no one ever wants to say I reali love having you ard. Its like being a catus. All prickly on the outside but watery inside. Or Coz maybe we r just scared that the feeling is not mutual. Or even worse, what if it becomes a hold over you. It's like maybe the person doesnt care that much but they know you have such a soft spot for them. It's like whatever you do wun affect them much but everything they do affects you to the first degree. That would be very painful. Extremely painful indeed.
Sometimes I actually envy ppl who know how to take things for granted. It takes guts, a little bit of inconsideration as well as heck-careness to do that. They just assume that the same ppl will always be there for them, will open their arms to them and embrace them for good and for bad. Sometimes I wish I could do that too. I dun wan to have to always think that one day someone would take them away from me and so every moment i m with them, i m thankful. It's like embracing something so deeply till it hurts.
A few nights ago, smth popped into my mind. What's the difference between talking and confiding? My interpretation is that talking is very general. It's level 1. And confiding is a jump to level 8. So be glad when ur friend confides in you coz its not smth they do everyday. How well can we say we know another person until we ve had a heart to heart talk? It's all abt the feelings. And that's what counts, isnt it. Rattling of activities and daily on goings simply constitutes another kind of talking.
And as im onto this, I remembered when I was in secondary school, I used to have a girlfriend who wants to be my everything. My all should be her and only her. I should go to school with her, I should wait for her, Ishould only shower affections on her and I should only be on the best terms with her? Possesive? I used to think so. But now I think Iwas only lucky then. She had it tough. She loved me more than I loved her, ever so much. *as a friend of course* Maybe what she reali needed then was not a best friend, it was a boy friend. But even so, the depth of her feelings must be so much more than mine to have wanted us to be this way. And sometimes when I think back now, I think at times i did felt like what she did then. And then i recalled what i said to her then. So easy to say, so hard to do. But its only now that i know of course. haha..
HA and looking back at alll my archives, im not a very good blogger who can list out the things i do. Coz i simply dun categorise my stuff lidat. I ve tried, but it simply doesnt feel natural. So in the end, my posts all sound super sentimental as if im gg through a lot. But its just that I go a lot by my feelings. Everyday I evaluate my day based on the feelings I have when im gg to bed. I would love to pretend to be positive and all, which I reali am - positive , that is. But its just that I tend to get a little philosophical as well.
Aright, after all the incessant ramblings, I go back to the gist of what i was trying to blog about. Which is one will care very much about what another does when they are very close. Isnt that right? It's so stupid. It's like such a small thing. Let me give you an example from my past days. One which I sometimes keep thinking about. Because I want to understand whats wrong with me as well. It seems like such a petty thing to get angry over.
It's waiting for a phonecall. When someone promises to call and you reali do want them to call, you channel all your energy into waiting for the call. Whatever shit you are doin, you tell yourself its ok, i m gg to be able to take that call later. And then you wait an hour, 2 hours, 3 hours and then never. It's like a child who's waiting all her life for santa claus and then realising a long time later then there's no such thing.
And do you guys treat a new friend better? It's like the whole process of revealing only the nice bits to them and then getting to know them as well and then slowly building up the whole relationship. It takes time and effort. But why when ppl become closer, they dun do these kind of things anymore? There's no more discovery coz everything that can be known has been known? It's so easy not to ask anymore coz you think.. ahh.. she's lidat one la.. or he's lidat one. But sometimes its just the fact that the other party bothers to make an effort. Sometimes you think, ok sometimes I think, one fine day when im reali in deep shit, how many of the ppl I love and care about will reali throw down everything and rush to my rescue. haha.. you know, like a friend in need is a friend indeed?
Once, when I was in secondary school, *haha seems like a lot of things happend in sec school* a guy told me he loved me. Then the next week, he told my friend he loved her. 2 weeks later, we found out that he told both of us he loved us. We were pretty hurt. How could he love us both at the same time??? Then I started to hate him. And she started to hate him and now we still hate him. hahah
Im like talking about my life story here. Nah.. it's just that I feel.. hmm pensive I guess. I guess im someone who needs reassurance sometimes. I need to hear sometimes that yes, no matter what happens i ll be there for you. I simply duno how to take for granted. To me, one day it will fade away. I can always be there and I will always know but who's to say the other party will? Is this called insecurity??? That's bad right? I want exclusitivity. Is this called being selfish and possesive? Is this a bad thing too?? haha.. There's no right or wrong i guess. It's all really a judgement call. It's a balance between wanting to have it all and having it I think. Sometimes when I want to have it all, I think what happens if in wanting to have it all, you lose all. Then you become appreciative of having at least a little now. BUt when you are basking in the feel of having a little of it, you start to crave more. Such a hard balance to maintain. hahaha..
Alright.. finally my thoughts are not running quicker than i can type. That's all for the night.
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
Today....
I threw away smth which I have fiercely kept all through these months...
The feeling? Released is the word.
Its close to 8 pm now and inevitably, my thoughts stray to the current DAC recruitment held in some tutorial room of S4...without me. Let me express my thanks here. Since we r all so busy these days. Thankyew you dan for going down after work even though you must be dead beat and foregoing whatever you can do with that time. Dun say ur not, coz u always sound so tired now. So thankyew. *hugz* I hate staying at home lidat while u guys are working ur asses off there.
Thanks thanks to my newly elected, up and coming comm too, mainly, shiming, karen as well as yiling. These 3 gals are my powerpuff gals. haha.. ever so on the ball. Im very much looking forward to getting my hands on the publication as well as meeting them again.
For all my efforts today, I got a little purple star. One that is truly mine. It may look a little ugly to some. But i ll always look at it a little differently. " ) Just coz its mine, mine, mine... *haha*
I threw away smth which I have fiercely kept all through these months...
The feeling? Released is the word.
Its close to 8 pm now and inevitably, my thoughts stray to the current DAC recruitment held in some tutorial room of S4...without me. Let me express my thanks here. Since we r all so busy these days. Thankyew you dan for going down after work even though you must be dead beat and foregoing whatever you can do with that time. Dun say ur not, coz u always sound so tired now. So thankyew. *hugz* I hate staying at home lidat while u guys are working ur asses off there.
Thanks thanks to my newly elected, up and coming comm too, mainly, shiming, karen as well as yiling. These 3 gals are my powerpuff gals. haha.. ever so on the ball. Im very much looking forward to getting my hands on the publication as well as meeting them again.
For all my efforts today, I got a little purple star. One that is truly mine. It may look a little ugly to some. But i ll always look at it a little differently. " ) Just coz its mine, mine, mine... *haha*
It's hmm 10.35am?? And I just woke up. haha the qn is Shiok or NOT shiok? haha ok maybe today is QUITE shiok coz at least im not suffering from a terrible headache.
Yupz ppl, im STILL on MC. BUT still... im not allowed out!
Need to quickly go find some lunch so that i can eat that antibiotic AND return back to work.
So very quickly, its already mid august.. and yesterday i heard the newscaster say, " in 4 mths time, its gg to be CHRISTMAS!" haha.. True true...
Nooow.. the qn is.. how am i gg to get lunch... maaabee i have to cooook......
Yupz ppl, im STILL on MC. BUT still... im not allowed out!
Need to quickly go find some lunch so that i can eat that antibiotic AND return back to work.
So very quickly, its already mid august.. and yesterday i heard the newscaster say, " in 4 mths time, its gg to be CHRISTMAS!" haha.. True true...
Nooow.. the qn is.. how am i gg to get lunch... maaabee i have to cooook......
Monday, August 14, 2006
Im a book worm.
Im bored to bits
I cant be bored to tears coz it will hurt my eyes
Im hungry!!! I want my lunch!
Actually.
Im Just Bored.
Im bored to bits
I cant be bored to tears coz it will hurt my eyes
Im hungry!!! I want my lunch!
Actually.
Im Just Bored.
Im at home. Its 12 noon. Coz im on MC... still sick. darn.
No work. No DAC. No nothing. If i were a caged bird, I think i might just survive a day or 2 only.
Someone once told us all, Rule no. 1 - Be patient.
These days, I utter it a lot to myself. It keeps me sane.
The depth of feelings.
But true enuff, only time will tell.
No work. No DAC. No nothing. If i were a caged bird, I think i might just survive a day or 2 only.
Someone once told us all, Rule no. 1 - Be patient.
These days, I utter it a lot to myself. It keeps me sane.
The depth of feelings.
But true enuff, only time will tell.
Saturday, August 12, 2006
Came home from work yesterday and realised that i was running a fever. It was so high that I forego dinner and went into a fitful sleep from 7 plus till this morning, 9 plus. All through the night, Iwoke up on a per hour interval and kept having disturbing and chaotic dreams which i attribute to the fever.
The worse thing is that i had to miss the outing with the NTUMarket! *sobzz* Was waiting for it the whole week! However, can just imagine the mass of humans crowding to watch the fireworks as well and I did a mental calculation and decided that I cannot survive in that crowded condition. Sure hope everyone had a good time and that you guys snapped loads of pretty pictures of the fireworks! Esp elv's "greedy" and siwei's "powerful cam"! oh and so sorry i missed Elv's and Sansan's early birthday celebration!! Happy early birthday to the 2 wonderful gals! Sure hope you 2 had a smashing good time!
I shall just await to see the pictures! Photoshop meeee in!
*princess returns to bed*
The worse thing is that i had to miss the outing with the NTUMarket! *sobzz* Was waiting for it the whole week! However, can just imagine the mass of humans crowding to watch the fireworks as well and I did a mental calculation and decided that I cannot survive in that crowded condition. Sure hope everyone had a good time and that you guys snapped loads of pretty pictures of the fireworks! Esp elv's "greedy" and siwei's "powerful cam"! oh and so sorry i missed Elv's and Sansan's early birthday celebration!! Happy early birthday to the 2 wonderful gals! Sure hope you 2 had a smashing good time!
I shall just await to see the pictures! Photoshop meeee in!
*princess returns to bed*
Friday, August 11, 2006
For the first time ever, I felt like i reali wanted to tuck myself in bed. The long journey back home alone makes me feel tired. And so is the competition.
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I appreciate home cooked food so much more now. Look at the kind of junk i eat outside for dinner now. *pics cant be loaded up* but its mostly cup noodles and instant egg and the sort. It's like I eat alone and so I cant be bothered to fuss over my meal. Just have smth, anything. It's such a small thing, but i wish i had a friend to eat with. But the nature of work makes it difficult.
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Went to run an errand in the morn and along the way and realised smth which i ve missed all these time. Ever since i started work, i ve had little chances to comb the malls. Westmall, Causeway Point, Lot 1, Jurong Point... I forgot how much i love the malls. It's only this morning as I was wandering through the Eastpoint Mall by myself that I rediscovered the feeling. I felt hmm.. at peace. hahah Its different from walking Orchard Road or Bugis or Marina. Serious. haha
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On hindsight, so many things I didnt mean for it to happen but it did. Things I thought I ll never ever do, I did. Words I thought I ll never say, I said as well. No wonder people say never say never. haha But any regrets? No regrets. Coz i made a choice and i ll always love my choice.
Thursday, August 10, 2006
My recent loves
Coffee Club's Wasabi Prawn Salad AND
Muddy Mud Pie drenched with dark chocolate and sprinkled with a generous serving of oreo crumbles. Yummy! And its huge enuff to chase the blues away.
Actually this one (Muddy Mud Pie) is already considered SMALL... Its a bit loopsided too. For the best version of the 2 above mentioned, should always visit the taka's branch of coffee Club. No kidding.
And today, I wana commend IBM. It's giving me the purfect service I could ever wanted for my lappie. Coz there was smth wrong with my cd drive a few months ago, what my engineer did was to loan me another laptop to use while they send mine for testing *many pts already* AND today they came by my place, right up to my door step to return it! *squeals... v pleased* At 8.30am sharp no less!
Starting work late today and so of course i ll end late too. Why dun working ppl have a holiday after the national day too?? *sulks* haha I ll be soo happy.
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
NATIONAL DAY... HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE.
I woke up feeling suxy and all. Woke up in the afternoon. I think its coz i went to bed with a heavy heart and wet hair. Such an idiot. Should at least blow dry my hair.
So this afternoon woke up with bad hair which is totally mood-ruining and watery eyes and sneezing fits. *pouts* Is the haze coming back or what? or is it my eyes. ...
Currently reading Tim Huxley's defending the lion city, on premature loan from dan; getting in the mood for the national day parade. I hope the contigents segment is gg to be good.
Monday, August 07, 2006
BLACK KNIGHTS.
Duno why, these 2 words are like stuck in my head since this morning. black knights, black knights, black knights. What are they aniway... . . . . ..
And today I used up 4 bars of my hp battery, trying to call some blardy telephone service centre *whose name i shall not mention, in case i get sued* NOBODY picks up the damn phone. I think they silenced it. reali. Coz cannot be man. Cannot be they so busy that no one picks up the phone at all coz they are attending to customers. I called NON-STOP for like 3 hours? And its really nonstop. Sooo I think they silenced it. blardy hell. And they are not linked to any other service centre. realli wonders whats gg on in there. The manager better get ready an explaination. IF there is a manager there... sianzzzzzzz
Very restless. A bit. Thinking about doing so many things. But will they go as planned? *shrugs* duno! Actually, im quite excited. But i keep tellin myself not to be TOOOO excited. BUT the fact is I AM excited la!!! how how how.
Sunday, August 06, 2006
Random Ramblings...
After such a long time, went back to granny's place. I miss my grandad. Everytime i think about him, i just remember the way he turned his head and told me those words. It's been a long time since i felt so fussed over as well. It makes me feel like a small girl again. In the arms of everyone.
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All my life, i think i did what i did so that you would be proud of me. But how come sometimes i feel like you have just taken a huge bucket of water and poured it all over me? I know everything you do, you only want the best for me. But sometimes i cant help feeling that way.
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10.18pm - Sunday. I miss you. You make me feel like i always need you around. haha Coz every single thing you do, i feel a little something inside me. I wish i din feel this way. But i do.
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Realisation of the past week: Pool actually requires a certain amount of thinking. And a certain someone is indeed very good at it! *u know who u are!* haha Enlightened about the game by the intellectual bengs ard. *winkz*
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Have always wanted to post this pic up. Guoxing's mum went to Japan and he brought the tennis khakis *us* this choco. Which tastes great. Everyone of us loves it right??? haha so I ve decided to post it up.
HONEY DEW flavoured kitkat
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A few times, i was a step too late. I wanted to hand u smth, but someone else beat me to it!!!hahah how come? I also duno. I ve been thinking about it. But never mind. hahah. The irony of it. A coincidence then.
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Yea and Im gg to view it soon! I hope its gg to be spectacular. Looking forward.
*dreamy n all~