haha.. the irony of it all...
You do not matter most to the one who matters the most to you AND YET you matter the most to the one who does not matter the most to you. *shrugs*
posted by Princess Flowerbloom at 10:57 PM
Sunday, July 30, 2006
It's Sunday! And I just woke up *time-530pm* The NTUMarket would understand. haha. Super knocked out the minute i lay on my bed. It had been a night of first times for some as well as fun and laughter and revelry for all. The whole group of beautifully dressed ladies from the market as well as the very handsome dudes that night, 3 of whom were togged out in the latest flower series top which i found strangely happy about. Flower-power i call it. haha
The food was passable and miraculously, we all made time to eat in the midst of the furious snapping of the camera to capture every single moment and person with us that night. Everyone wanted a little something to remember the night by. And who could forget the dance the man of the night gave us on stage *grinz* A first time he said. Then you should do it more often, came my reply. haha. which means that it was not bad at all - not bad.
And Thank you to siwei for compiling those memorable photos in the book. Look how far we have all come, up till the day we donned that graduation robe of ours. The best was the little notes from everyone at the back of the book. I ll keep that book in my drawer of important things. haha *yes, i do have a drawer like that* And i ll just whack anyone who comes into my room and attempts to take it without my permission. Yes, that's how much i ll treasure it.
Kudos to Jingsi for her wonderful cookies too. Such a sweet thought. She baked them herself too! And to the sweet wonderful beautiful babe-licious gal who gave me the tapes * I hope ur reading this* I just wana take this chance to thank her for listening to all my crap and listening to me cry over the phone for hours and for being honest enough to tell me how she feels and trying to get me back on track. When I first met her, who would have known we would come this far? So, thank you babe, i ll be here for you too, if you ever need me.
And guys, I hope you all din throw away that black Zenith convocation event booklet. haha if you all looked to the back the of book, Ive actually added something which I would like to share with all you guys, but just in case you all threw the book away.. here's it again.
The food was passable and miraculously, we all made time to eat in the midst of the furious snapping of the camera to capture every single moment and person with us that night. Everyone wanted a little something to remember the night by. And who could forget the dance the man of the night gave us on stage *grinz* A first time he said. Then you should do it more often, came my reply. haha. which means that it was not bad at all - not bad.
And Thank you to siwei for compiling those memorable photos in the book. Look how far we have all come, up till the day we donned that graduation robe of ours. The best was the little notes from everyone at the back of the book. I ll keep that book in my drawer of important things. haha *yes, i do have a drawer like that* And i ll just whack anyone who comes into my room and attempts to take it without my permission. Yes, that's how much i ll treasure it.
Kudos to Jingsi for her wonderful cookies too. Such a sweet thought. She baked them herself too! And to the sweet wonderful beautiful babe-licious gal who gave me the tapes * I hope ur reading this* I just wana take this chance to thank her for listening to all my crap and listening to me cry over the phone for hours and for being honest enough to tell me how she feels and trying to get me back on track. When I first met her, who would have known we would come this far? So, thank you babe, i ll be here for you too, if you ever need me.
And guys, I hope you all din throw away that black Zenith convocation event booklet. haha if you all looked to the back the of book, Ive actually added something which I would like to share with all you guys, but just in case you all threw the book away.. here's it again.
Hold fast to dreams, for if dreams die, life is like a broken
winged bird that cannot fly.
-Langston Huges-
Wednesday, July 26, 2006
Be warned guys, this is gona be soo random, there's no heading. " )
I think i'm gg to get my period soon. A.K.A im pmsing. Not in a bad way. Just that i think i get v touched easily and the tear glands are kinda active. No wonder these days i keep thinking whats wrong with me. I get affected suddenly and then the next moment i wished i din feel that way and then a few minutes later i feel alright. But i think its just that time of the month. I get touched just by reading a book and thinking about stuff. Sometimes even i get sick of being so emotional. Just blame it all on the pms thing... hahha
On a side note, Im so glad yesterday's convoc went perfectly well. At least to me it did. I hate to say this, but i think sometimes im a worrywart. I worry about all kinds of things and the worst thing is i dun tell anyone about them and just keep thinking about it. hahah im glad the bus company din let us down and we got a bus. Im glad i made it up the stage with my gown and motarboard all in place. You wouldnt believe how worried I was that i will screw smth up. hahah or smth clumsy.
And bestest of all *if there's such a word* Im glad we took sooo many pics! When i was sitting in front of the bus, it was a bit of a "gan3 chu4 duo1 duo1" moment for me. Moments i call it. There I was sitting with dan and andy, the 2 who never fail to rail me up and make me laugh and who despite all their sarcasm, do do some very nice things sometimes. And then i look to the back of the bus and see the whole ntu market garbed in our robes and all.. such an awesome sight. Reali a bit "gan3 dong4" then.*and so out came the sunglasses, bet none of u guessed it*.
The toes on my feet are screamin "ouch,ouch,ouch" though. They hurt like nobody's business. I think Im not cut out to walk in court shoes for the whole day. Either that, or my shoes are no good. haha
SATURDAY = PLAY DAY.
This morning as I was making my way to work, I think Im a girl who needs excitment in my life. I need something to look forward to. Even little little things. Having a big presentation excites me. Waiting for a phone call does too. An outing with a close friend. A dinner date? A new assignment? As long as it's something I like. There may be many disappointments in life, but its alright, I can learn to stand up again if I have something to look forward to. I appreciate the stability and serenity of things but at the same, I NEED little excitements periodically and thrills. hahah and yes, Im looking forward to Saturday, even though there's work still ! " )
I think i'm gg to get my period soon. A.K.A im pmsing. Not in a bad way. Just that i think i get v touched easily and the tear glands are kinda active. No wonder these days i keep thinking whats wrong with me. I get affected suddenly and then the next moment i wished i din feel that way and then a few minutes later i feel alright. But i think its just that time of the month. I get touched just by reading a book and thinking about stuff. Sometimes even i get sick of being so emotional. Just blame it all on the pms thing... hahha
On a side note, Im so glad yesterday's convoc went perfectly well. At least to me it did. I hate to say this, but i think sometimes im a worrywart. I worry about all kinds of things and the worst thing is i dun tell anyone about them and just keep thinking about it. hahah im glad the bus company din let us down and we got a bus. Im glad i made it up the stage with my gown and motarboard all in place. You wouldnt believe how worried I was that i will screw smth up. hahah or smth clumsy.
And bestest of all *if there's such a word* Im glad we took sooo many pics! When i was sitting in front of the bus, it was a bit of a "gan3 chu4 duo1 duo1" moment for me. Moments i call it. There I was sitting with dan and andy, the 2 who never fail to rail me up and make me laugh and who despite all their sarcasm, do do some very nice things sometimes. And then i look to the back of the bus and see the whole ntu market garbed in our robes and all.. such an awesome sight. Reali a bit "gan3 dong4" then.*and so out came the sunglasses, bet none of u guessed it*.
" Because what we have between us all is so beautiful and rare, each time i hold on tighter and appreciate more. The further I walk away each time, I also come running back closer"
The toes on my feet are screamin "ouch,ouch,ouch" though. They hurt like nobody's business. I think Im not cut out to walk in court shoes for the whole day. Either that, or my shoes are no good. haha
SATURDAY = PLAY DAY.
This morning as I was making my way to work, I think Im a girl who needs excitment in my life. I need something to look forward to. Even little little things. Having a big presentation excites me. Waiting for a phone call does too. An outing with a close friend. A dinner date? A new assignment? As long as it's something I like. There may be many disappointments in life, but its alright, I can learn to stand up again if I have something to look forward to. I appreciate the stability and serenity of things but at the same, I NEED little excitements periodically and thrills. hahah and yes, Im looking forward to Saturday, even though there's work still ! " )
Friday, July 21, 2006
It's 1pm and I'm still at home. Coz im gg to work late tonight to oversee some operations work. So had the luxury to wake late today. Luxurious.
These days I think I have been taking a lot of deep breaths. It's to clear the system. Nowadays some things I just close one eye and enjoy it as it comes. Coz to live without is painful but to probe is even more painful. But i like it too much to let go! *wails* So like what ignorant humans do, I ignore. But im sure one day it ll explode in my face. haha I sure hope there will be a safety net somewhere when that happens.
I have a strategy for most things. except this. *ponders* If i actually analyse it, its reali quite delusional. Coz everyday I do so many things and potter around and keep myself busy. And each time the thought surfaces, I push it away and then I cramp my brain with some other thing and then I busy my hands as well. But deep beneath the surface, it lurks. Subconsiously its always there.
Now i dun even know what I want *lost*
Im gg back to bed. Wake me up at dinner time.
These days I think I have been taking a lot of deep breaths. It's to clear the system. Nowadays some things I just close one eye and enjoy it as it comes. Coz to live without is painful but to probe is even more painful. But i like it too much to let go! *wails* So like what ignorant humans do, I ignore. But im sure one day it ll explode in my face. haha I sure hope there will be a safety net somewhere when that happens.
I have a strategy for most things. except this. *ponders* If i actually analyse it, its reali quite delusional. Coz everyday I do so many things and potter around and keep myself busy. And each time the thought surfaces, I push it away and then I cramp my brain with some other thing and then I busy my hands as well. But deep beneath the surface, it lurks. Subconsiously its always there.
Now i dun even know what I want *lost*
Im gg back to bed. Wake me up at dinner time.
Thursday, July 20, 2006
Did some real stuff today finally. It was sure tiring. No kidding. Got my most troublesome truck load today as well. But it was indeed good experience. For the time being, any experience at work is a good work experience coz to have no experience means there’s nothing new to learn and that wouldn’t be good, would it?
One of the bad thing is that I do not constantly have access to a computer here so I bring my lappie along. It makes me feel happy. The downside is that its blardy heavy. But these days, with tennis as well as the work I do, I think im getting toner arms. But then again, of course that’s just what I think only. Hahhaa
The weather’s very hot today. The weather’s very gloomy yesterday. See how unpredictable it is and how fast it changes. Time reali flies. I thought I just said it was end of june and beginning of july. Now its gg to be the end of july and the beginning of august.
Suddenly, I miss my Bleach anime. I shall try to cuddle up with my pillow tonight later and watch a few episodes. Sorely lagging behind in that. Hahha. Ive got great plans tonight.
The weekend’s coming…! “ ) in bliss.
One of the bad thing is that I do not constantly have access to a computer here so I bring my lappie along. It makes me feel happy. The downside is that its blardy heavy. But these days, with tennis as well as the work I do, I think im getting toner arms. But then again, of course that’s just what I think only. Hahhaa
The weather’s very hot today. The weather’s very gloomy yesterday. See how unpredictable it is and how fast it changes. Time reali flies. I thought I just said it was end of june and beginning of july. Now its gg to be the end of july and the beginning of august.
Suddenly, I miss my Bleach anime. I shall try to cuddle up with my pillow tonight later and watch a few episodes. Sorely lagging behind in that. Hahha. Ive got great plans tonight.
The weekend’s coming…! “ ) in bliss.
Sunday, July 16, 2006
Ahh . . . so nostalgic!!! Guess where I am now?? Im in NTU's Canteen B chionging out the publication with my DAC team.
As I turned in from the Pioneer road entrance passing Hall 4 and Yunnan Garden and then the Heritage Centre, a whole flood of feelings came back. Although it has only been a short 2 months ever since exams ended and we were all thrown into the big wide world out there, it felt like more than 2 months! At least that's what I feel.
Was just mentioning to Dan that everything feels a bit different. It's like gg out to experience different things and meeting new people and then coming back to view the same picture. Everything remains the same and yet its different at the same time. This feeling of familarity and newness at the same time. And I guess we agreed, if we were put back into the classroom, there may be some things that we will do differently.
But aniway, this will always be a place which i will think of fondly, coz its where I met all of you guys. And as much as it may seem funny, I think I found myself here as well. In this short span of 3 years, I think I had my fair share of quarrels, cries, laughter and fun. Super no regrets.
I would like to think that as we all grow up, we shall all go out and fight our battles with the bitchy ppl, carve our marks and sweat it out in the big world out there but at the end of the day we shall all come back together and get support and strength from each other and then after that we ll go out and fight again! *grinz* hahaah What a force we are to reckon with!
Ahh alright! Back to the task on hand! And i shall fully savour this day. It's different!
As I turned in from the Pioneer road entrance passing Hall 4 and Yunnan Garden and then the Heritage Centre, a whole flood of feelings came back. Although it has only been a short 2 months ever since exams ended and we were all thrown into the big wide world out there, it felt like more than 2 months! At least that's what I feel.
Was just mentioning to Dan that everything feels a bit different. It's like gg out to experience different things and meeting new people and then coming back to view the same picture. Everything remains the same and yet its different at the same time. This feeling of familarity and newness at the same time. And I guess we agreed, if we were put back into the classroom, there may be some things that we will do differently.
But aniway, this will always be a place which i will think of fondly, coz its where I met all of you guys. And as much as it may seem funny, I think I found myself here as well. In this short span of 3 years, I think I had my fair share of quarrels, cries, laughter and fun. Super no regrets.
I would like to think that as we all grow up, we shall all go out and fight our battles with the bitchy ppl, carve our marks and sweat it out in the big world out there but at the end of the day we shall all come back together and get support and strength from each other and then after that we ll go out and fight again! *grinz* hahaah What a force we are to reckon with!
Ahh alright! Back to the task on hand! And i shall fully savour this day. It's different!
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
I'm home! (@ 1145pm) *skips happily* And to YOU.. I ll tell you all that u wana know... I PROMISE. Have a little faith in me!!! *makes a face*
Ok, what's up man. Due to some arrangements, did a little work timing change today!! Started at 2 plus in the afternoon till night. Was interesting I must say. Totally diff feel from the 8 to 5 thing. And was I bored or tired? OMG, there was too many new things to see and learn.
And guess what. Guess who I spoke to in the station today!?!? Chen Hanwei in his orangey volkswagen! And guess who THEY spoke to yesterday?? Fann wong! *faintz* hahha *seeing stars*
Talking abt stars, dan saw a full moon last night! It was round as round can be! And guess what again?! I saw the full moon, round as round could be tonight! Apparently last night was the 15th and today, the 16th!
There's work in the morn tml! I shall go type finish the last few pages of my report and then I shall pop in bed and wish for a good dream to last me till tml morn!
Tennis tml!! I like!
-Flowerbloom is chripy and all -
Ok, what's up man. Due to some arrangements, did a little work timing change today!! Started at 2 plus in the afternoon till night. Was interesting I must say. Totally diff feel from the 8 to 5 thing. And was I bored or tired? OMG, there was too many new things to see and learn.
And guess what. Guess who I spoke to in the station today!?!? Chen Hanwei in his orangey volkswagen! And guess who THEY spoke to yesterday?? Fann wong! *faintz* hahha *seeing stars*
Talking abt stars, dan saw a full moon last night! It was round as round can be! And guess what again?! I saw the full moon, round as round could be tonight! Apparently last night was the 15th and today, the 16th!
There's work in the morn tml! I shall go type finish the last few pages of my report and then I shall pop in bed and wish for a good dream to last me till tml morn!
Tennis tml!! I like!
-Flowerbloom is chripy and all -
Tuesday, July 11, 2006
*Weirdly enuff, I wrote this on Sunday night, b4 we went for KTV on Monday and I started rambling abt the MOON.You are like the beautiful sunrise, for all to see, never mine to own.
-flowerbloom is distracted to bits -
Sunday, July 09, 2006
I did a thing which i always wanted to do last night! I went to watch a movie in a park! *grinz* I love parks! I ve always wanted to take a mat and sit in the park under the night sky with my loved ones and just sit there and soak in the atmosphere and each other's prescene. The moon and the twinkling stars above. Love it. Wonderful!The feeling is indescribable.
K.Oed last night halfway through everything and sunk into a deep deep sleep and this Sunday morning , i automatically woke up at 7am!! *gasps* how can sunday wake up at 7am?!! I quickly popped myself into bed. hahaha Funnily, before I woke at 7am, Iwas having this dream of my life and weirdly enuff, I continued the dream after i went back to bed. How cool is that man!
A great dream which leaves a warm tingly feeling in me the rest of the day. On a wistful note, if only, it wasnt a dream.
K.Oed last night halfway through everything and sunk into a deep deep sleep and this Sunday morning , i automatically woke up at 7am!! *gasps* how can sunday wake up at 7am?!! I quickly popped myself into bed. hahaha Funnily, before I woke at 7am, Iwas having this dream of my life and weirdly enuff, I continued the dream after i went back to bed. How cool is that man!
A great dream which leaves a warm tingly feeling in me the rest of the day. On a wistful note, if only, it wasnt a dream.
-she made a wish-
Saturday, July 08, 2006
I can feel in it my bones... although no one is saying but I can feel it. BUT im gg to ignore it. ahh what a silly gal i am! I hope I dun regret this.
YESTERDAY
Had my first official project meeting in a long time without Dan, Jamie and Andy. Felt a little lost as it was new people, new working styles. Less understanding, mutual support and in-sync-ness. In the past, when we do projects, it was so taken for granted. Andy does the figures, Daniel does the ppt and Jamie does the research and me, the report. But now, its starting from scratch. Everything. But people learn, dun they. I did. A little bruised. But I ll survive. " )
TODAY
9am: Woke up feeling a little different, the sun is up and all looks fine! Sitting in the office now preparing to do tones of report. Heard Backstreet boy’s larger than life in the car… Nostalgic. Particularly love this line,"all you people, cant you see, cant u see? Can u?
Current Song List . ..
Bosson – one in a million
"You're one in a million, You're once in a lifetime. You made me discover one of the stars above us"
Son by four – purest of pain
"I'm sorry I didn't mean to call, but I couldn't fight it. I guess I was weak and couldn't even hide it and so I surrender just to hear your voice"
Unfaithful
"I don't wanna do this anymore. I don't wanna be the reason why, everytime I walk out the doorI see him die a little more inside. I don't wanna hurt him anymoreI don't wanna take away his lifeI don't wanna be...A murderer"
No tomorrow
"When we're together, there's no tomorrow. When we're together, there's no one in the world but you and me. Just you and me."
Fall to pieces
"And I don't wanna fall to pieces. I just wanna sit and stare at you. I don't wanna talk about it And I don't want a conversation. I just wanna cry in front of you. I don't wanna talk about it'Cause I'm in love with you."
Bad-day
"Cause you had a bad day You're taking one down You sing a sad song just to turn it around "
Because you live
"Because you live and breathe, because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help. Because you live, my world has twice as many stars in the sky"
Because of you
"Because of youI learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt"
11am: heard the song hard to say im sorry by Chicago. Brings back memories.
1245pm: ahh completed tasks. *out for the day!* " )
Had my first official project meeting in a long time without Dan, Jamie and Andy. Felt a little lost as it was new people, new working styles. Less understanding, mutual support and in-sync-ness. In the past, when we do projects, it was so taken for granted. Andy does the figures, Daniel does the ppt and Jamie does the research and me, the report. But now, its starting from scratch. Everything. But people learn, dun they. I did. A little bruised. But I ll survive. " )
TODAY
9am: Woke up feeling a little different, the sun is up and all looks fine! Sitting in the office now preparing to do tones of report. Heard Backstreet boy’s larger than life in the car… Nostalgic. Particularly love this line,"all you people, cant you see, cant u see? Can u?
Current Song List . ..
Bosson – one in a million
"You're one in a million, You're once in a lifetime. You made me discover one of the stars above us"
Son by four – purest of pain
"I'm sorry I didn't mean to call, but I couldn't fight it. I guess I was weak and couldn't even hide it and so I surrender just to hear your voice"
Unfaithful
"I don't wanna do this anymore. I don't wanna be the reason why, everytime I walk out the doorI see him die a little more inside. I don't wanna hurt him anymoreI don't wanna take away his lifeI don't wanna be...A murderer"
No tomorrow
"When we're together, there's no tomorrow. When we're together, there's no one in the world but you and me. Just you and me."
Fall to pieces
"And I don't wanna fall to pieces. I just wanna sit and stare at you. I don't wanna talk about it And I don't want a conversation. I just wanna cry in front of you. I don't wanna talk about it'Cause I'm in love with you."
Bad-day
"Cause you had a bad day You're taking one down You sing a sad song just to turn it around "
Because you live
"Because you live and breathe, because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help. Because you live, my world has twice as many stars in the sky"
Because of you
"Because of youI learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt"
11am: heard the song hard to say im sorry by Chicago. Brings back memories.
1245pm: ahh completed tasks. *out for the day!* " )
Monday, July 03, 2006
Spent the whole day facing the computer screen today and rushing out videos after videos... argh.. where are the reports instead! It was all so rush that onli had lunch at 230pm and coz of such a late lunch, onli had "dao suan" for dinner.
Work aside, met up with a friend which i super never meet up with for a long time. It feels kinda weird. Dun even know how to explain. ..
Gt sunburn on my arms, so wearing tops with sleeves hurts now. And it doesnt onli hurts, it hurts like mad.
Hhaha.. "sigh" what am I doin? Actually im quite fed up with the whole situation. This calls for a change in lifestyle gal...maybe more so in thinking. Ok, im sure u all can see, im feelin quite confused now thus my writing all seems damn confusing.
OK, how abt i start all over again? Hmm ok how abt lets just summarize it in these few pointers. I wana do these things in the month of july.
1. I wana go to bugis. Why? I think i wana go there and shop. Actually , there's just this one particular shop I wana visit.
2. I wana go catch a show. Any show... Im damn deprived of movies...I wana sit in the cinema with friends i like and sit there and be my slack self and watch a show and eat popcorn and drink coke and laugh and cry like nobody's business. I dun wana have to go for a show on a formal daaaaate!!!!!
3.I wana go to marina square to shop. I wana visit Ms selfridge, Zara, Mango, Topshop.....
4. I wana go to rocher and have my "bak kut teh". Have been thinking abt it for quite some time. With loads of salted vege and chilli in dark sauce.
5. I wana go rollerblade. dun ask me why, I just feel like it.
6. I wana go to Hark cafe.... . . . someone bring me there! " )
7. And lastly, I wana take a neoprint. not the sticker kind, mind you. But the card kind. Anyone game? haha hmm its just a childish whim. Actually I ve been thinking abt it for months. Im just a bit paiseh to bring it up to any one thats gg out with me coz its like so passe... but i still would like to do it.
Ya, so there. all the things i would like to do for now, this month. Any lovely people out there who would like to volunteer company?????
Im feeling a little grouchy and all now.. Its not that Im not content or what.. But its just human nature, isnt it? that the grass is always greener on the other side. Sometimes i feel like no one understands. I feeling a little grouchy that I cant go out very late, coz i have to work the next day. I am grouchy that for the first few months, I have to work hard to prove my worth. Like come on . .. I am unhappy that I cant chiong out on friday nights. Sometimes, when u need to make too many choices, I get a bit upset too...
Such a brat right.. But dun get me wrong, I also appreciate the better things I have. Im fully appreciative of it, and I am reali thankful. Its just that sometimes . . . ya sometimes, u just feel it isnt enuff.
" ( Sometimes, after saying so much, the best thing a friend can do for you is to give you a real big hug that says , i ll be there for you and u ll be fine.Nothing beats that. Actually, Im super appreciative of a good hug that says it all. The best ones I ve ever received so far, I never forgot.
A hug says it all.
Work aside, met up with a friend which i super never meet up with for a long time. It feels kinda weird. Dun even know how to explain. ..
Gt sunburn on my arms, so wearing tops with sleeves hurts now. And it doesnt onli hurts, it hurts like mad.
Hhaha.. "sigh" what am I doin? Actually im quite fed up with the whole situation. This calls for a change in lifestyle gal...maybe more so in thinking. Ok, im sure u all can see, im feelin quite confused now thus my writing all seems damn confusing.
OK, how abt i start all over again? Hmm ok how abt lets just summarize it in these few pointers. I wana do these things in the month of july.
1. I wana go to bugis. Why? I think i wana go there and shop. Actually , there's just this one particular shop I wana visit.
2. I wana go catch a show. Any show... Im damn deprived of movies...I wana sit in the cinema with friends i like and sit there and be my slack self and watch a show and eat popcorn and drink coke and laugh and cry like nobody's business. I dun wana have to go for a show on a formal daaaaate!!!!!
3.
4. I wana go to rocher and have my "bak kut teh". Have been thinking abt it for quite some time. With loads of salted vege and chilli in dark sauce.
5. I wana go rollerblade. dun ask me why, I just feel like it.
6. I wana go to Hark cafe.... . . . someone bring me there! " )
7. And lastly, I wana take a neoprint. not the sticker kind, mind you. But the card kind. Anyone game? haha hmm its just a childish whim. Actually I ve been thinking abt it for months. Im just a bit paiseh to bring it up to any one thats gg out with me coz its like so passe... but i still would like to do it.
Ya, so there. all the things i would like to do for now, this month. Any lovely people out there who would like to volunteer company?????
Im feeling a little grouchy and all now.. Its not that Im not content or what.. But its just human nature, isnt it? that the grass is always greener on the other side. Sometimes i feel like no one understands. I feeling a little grouchy that I cant go out very late, coz i have to work the next day. I am grouchy that for the first few months, I have to work hard to prove my worth. Like come on . .. I am unhappy that I cant chiong out on friday nights. Sometimes, when u need to make too many choices, I get a bit upset too...
Such a brat right.. But dun get me wrong, I also appreciate the better things I have. Im fully appreciative of it, and I am reali thankful. Its just that sometimes . . . ya sometimes, u just feel it isnt enuff.
" ( Sometimes, after saying so much, the best thing a friend can do for you is to give you a real big hug that says , i ll be there for you and u ll be fine.Nothing beats that. Actually, Im super appreciative of a good hug that says it all. The best ones I ve ever received so far, I never forgot.
A hug says it all.
Saturday, July 01, 2006
Such a coincidence.
Always.
How can it be??
Does it mean anything??
Mutually freaked out.
Even more so, after THAT.
Always.
How can it be??
Does it mean anything??
Mutually freaked out.
Even more so, after THAT.
Uh hmm.... *Breathes...Breathes...* Breathes....Sometimes work is good. You dun think abt other things. And then everything seems ok. Even when its not. I knew it would happen one day. Bring it on.
And because of how it affects me and how disgruntled and disappointed I am, yes, this time I accept ur invitation. To heck with it. You can just take me out for a good laugh.
And because of how it affects me and how disgruntled and disappointed I am, yes, this time I accept ur invitation. To heck with it. You can just take me out for a good laugh.