1 hour before going off to the airport.. I feel a rush of blood, my heart thumps non stop, irratically, my fingers are cold and I cant think properly. Reason being I just got a surprise. In all my years, i can swear, in uni, i got the most number of surprises in 3 years. And yes I hope a certain Mr ng is reading this.
I certainly still feel like fainting now. I cannot think. I just sit here and read that over and over again and yes, im speechless. It was reali not predictable at all! Idont think I ll ever get over this. I still am not. And I haven sent the email to anyone that I mentioned Im going to send. Oh dear...
Super touched. No words can express this. No words at all. It would be a real shame if words could. .. . . . . .
posted by Princess Flowerbloom at 10:26 PM
Sunday, May 14, 2006
I must say I STILL feel a tad cheated for reasons only known to me. But after a 4 hour "watching" marathon; 3 on the TV and 1 on the laptop, I feel less sore about it. As I was watching the anime "Bleach" a line from long ago resurfaced in my head - Just because someone doesnt love you the way you want them to, doesnt mean they don't love you with all they have. Ahhh what profound truth, for those who know the storyline, dont you think so?
Oh shucks woke up feeling great but and felt damn lousy and irritated when I saw a piece of info online. Cannot phantom it man. Ok thinking about it makes me feel even worse. It was reali an instanteous split change of feelings. Im not gg to let it ruin my Sunday. I shall go do simple things today like eat with my family, watch my anime and desperate housewives and then drive to school later. Actually, Ithink I feel a bit cheated. oh and
Happy Mommy's Day! *shes the best*
Friday, May 12, 2006
Kinda hooked onto this blogging thing these days. I think it cleanses the mind and pour the thoughts of out them. Was packing my luggage just now and oh gosh.. feeling so nua....
Ahh......wat do i wana do man... today feels like saturday!! I m waiting for monday to arrive. WHY??? *Its a secret!* I ll let you guys know soon! I need to go out. I FEEL like gg out today but it rained. It always rain on vesak day. Im on a high now coz i gt a whiff of this new fragrance by Ralph Lauren. Its a bit on the strong side but its a mix of sensual mocha cream, spicy cinnamon and LUSCIOUS maple.. yum yums. It smells delicious. Its now on my desire list. Here's how it looks like. I would have liked it more if the bottle looks more hmm upclass if u get what i mean. But well, the fragrance is good.
Just found out that the faded out craze of tamagochi is in yet again!! Feel like gettin one also.. hahha like so childish right.. BUt i used to keep them! I guess its a substitute for the pet loving me who cannot accept it when my pet dies. So i go electronic. This latest version 3 apparently has a challenge too! Which is to raise 5000 points through playing games with your pet in order to gain a password and visit the Tamagotchi King in TamaTown. *giggles.. try saying this aloud and it keeps sounding like tryin to say bad word lidat!! hahah*
AND i just stumbled on in this! Poh heng's new range of disney cuties! in 18K and 22K gold! I think its so simply adorable! At this point in time, I think I would prefer this to diamonds!
Ahh......wat do i wana do man... today feels like saturday!! I m waiting for monday to arrive. WHY??? *Its a secret!* I ll let you guys know soon! I need to go out. I FEEL like gg out today but it rained. It always rain on vesak day. Im on a high now coz i gt a whiff of this new fragrance by Ralph Lauren. Its a bit on the strong side but its a mix of sensual mocha cream, spicy cinnamon and LUSCIOUS maple.. yum yums. It smells delicious. Its now on my desire list. Here's how it looks like. I would have liked it more if the bottle looks more hmm upclass if u get what i mean. But well, the fragrance is good.
Just found out that the faded out craze of tamagochi is in yet again!! Feel like gettin one also.. hahha like so childish right.. BUt i used to keep them! I guess its a substitute for the pet loving me who cannot accept it when my pet dies. So i go electronic. This latest version 3 apparently has a challenge too! Which is to raise 5000 points through playing games with your pet in order to gain a password and visit the Tamagotchi King in TamaTown. *giggles.. try saying this aloud and it keeps sounding like tryin to say bad word lidat!! hahah*
AND i just stumbled on in this! Poh heng's new range of disney cuties! in 18K and 22K gold! I think its so simply adorable! At this point in time, I think I would prefer this to diamonds!
Thursday, May 11, 2006
I seriously duno what's come over me at this point in time. I am suppose to prepare to go out and here I am blogging. I simply cannot bring myself to go out. Simply cannot. I feel like I just had a bucket of ice cold water sploshed and splashed all over me. And all I can do is just sit here and let the ice cold waves of feelings wash over me. I think I may have an over active imagination. I trust I can make myself happy and sad just with the directions of my thoughts. Most of the time I do think they are extremely logical and make sense. Until a few of those extremely rare few bossom pals hear it. Why rare? Coz I never could bring myself to share so much of me with so many people. Call it a trait. Or a weird trait. Or maybe its me. No other complicated reasons. They never fail to ask me not to think too much. Unfortunately these thoughts pop in just like that. I trust that leaving me too long to my own devices may not even be a good thing as I always seem to be thinking. It comes so naturally.
Call me sensitive and many would shake their heads. Call me insensitive and it doesnt reali quite fit the bill as well. I used to wonder why I get upset and all riled up at some things. These days Im like kind of prepping upself up for things. I imagine it happenin in the future and then I think maybe one day I will get so used to it, I will not even be upset anymore. Maybe like I need a few years. But how come no matter how many times I think about it, somewhere hurts quite not so a little bit. Call it a coward's way or maybe this is what they call mental strength training. Either way, at least Im not running from it anymore. In the past few months I used to run so much from it, I get sick of it even. I think it kinda hurts to think about it even right now. See, I think thats the bad thing about me really. When I believe in you, I really do. And even if the earth shakes and the waves come, I still believe in you. And if I dont, you are just off the radar screen altogether. Just like my faith towards my black trusty IBM. My faith for it renewed after it was in perfectly working condition even after a hard fall from the heights of a study table. hahah...
Is this stupidity or what? And aniway, I dun even know why am I suddenly even thinking of all these things. I think I m just trying to pour out these sudden moments of anguish so that I may stop thinking and go out. It kinda feels good to be just rambling on and on like that. . . I'm feeling half fine already. . .
It's just so sad that miwa and siwei will not be joining us for the Europe trip afterall. Wat a twist. Just as I was so looking forward to having them both around. But I guess everyone has their constraints and I do hope they can have a good time here in Singapore as well. I cant believe how rubbishly sentimental I can be at times. Its really rather amazing considering most adjectives I hear about myself are words like decisive and calm and ridiculous words like neutral and god knows what else. On the contary, as quite a few can attest to, I do have my sentimental moments. Like if you ever give me a present, most likely, after 10 years, you will find that I still do have it even though its not displayed on my desk. But in any way, by hook or by crook even if its collecting dust and crumbling, I will absolutely not allow any one including myself to throw it in the rubbish bin or give it to the salvation army. Coz its from you to me! And there are spurts like I always cry when I hear the song "Let it be" by the beetles. The effect is better achieved if its played live in front of me. My heart just goes a bit wobbly and then the tear glands start activating themselves. Call it weird, but I also duno whats wrong. The last thing I remember about this is actually elvina's shocked face coz when we went to karen's GE class, one of the performin group did this song and well.. I did my thing.. tears started showing. And weirdly enough when my good friend starts crying uncontrollably, I start to comfort her and then I will start tearing too. The good thing that comes out from this is that my friend will be so shocked that she stops momentarily and then yupz.. she stops crying.
I was just thinking earlier, how glad I am that I will be going to Europe with elv, jamie, jingsi, andy and dawn. Its as what we always believe in, the company. At the same time, I think Im really gg to miss a certain mr daniel ng hua qing. Come to think of it, its going to be the first time in 3 years that im not gg to see him for 3 weeks in a row. Usually due to events and circumstances, the most I dun see him is for 1 week and even so, the voice can be heard. hahaha Even during professional attachment when we were trying to take a break from each other , we "sway sway" gt into the same attachment firm and well the suanning and getting caught doing stupid things by him continued. Weird isnt it. Now that I think of it. Ya, so you will be sorely missed, dan. Like no late night solitares and hexic for 3 weeks and no nonsensical (or sometimes insightful) yakking away and no one to keep owlish hours with. But then again maybe I will be so tired out by the trip each day in Europe that I revert to normal sleeping hours. But considering that sleeping is not my no. 1 love, I doubt it will happen much. Amazing isnt it.
Ok goodness, I cant believe I went on and on, I am feeling a bit better now. I shall not fly my friend's aeroplane coz I know that kind of anticipation feeling and then the heavy plunk of disappointment that comes with it when you dont get what you want. Terrible isnt it. Well at least even if Im not feeling too fantastic, I shall strive to be a good company and make my friend a happy one.
Call me sensitive and many would shake their heads. Call me insensitive and it doesnt reali quite fit the bill as well. I used to wonder why I get upset and all riled up at some things. These days Im like kind of prepping upself up for things. I imagine it happenin in the future and then I think maybe one day I will get so used to it, I will not even be upset anymore. Maybe like I need a few years. But how come no matter how many times I think about it, somewhere hurts quite not so a little bit. Call it a coward's way or maybe this is what they call mental strength training. Either way, at least Im not running from it anymore. In the past few months I used to run so much from it, I get sick of it even. I think it kinda hurts to think about it even right now. See, I think thats the bad thing about me really. When I believe in you, I really do. And even if the earth shakes and the waves come, I still believe in you. And if I dont, you are just off the radar screen altogether. Just like my faith towards my black trusty IBM. My faith for it renewed after it was in perfectly working condition even after a hard fall from the heights of a study table. hahah...
Is this stupidity or what? And aniway, I dun even know why am I suddenly even thinking of all these things. I think I m just trying to pour out these sudden moments of anguish so that I may stop thinking and go out. It kinda feels good to be just rambling on and on like that. . . I'm feeling half fine already. . .
It's just so sad that miwa and siwei will not be joining us for the Europe trip afterall. Wat a twist. Just as I was so looking forward to having them both around. But I guess everyone has their constraints and I do hope they can have a good time here in Singapore as well. I cant believe how rubbishly sentimental I can be at times. Its really rather amazing considering most adjectives I hear about myself are words like decisive and calm and ridiculous words like neutral and god knows what else. On the contary, as quite a few can attest to, I do have my sentimental moments. Like if you ever give me a present, most likely, after 10 years, you will find that I still do have it even though its not displayed on my desk. But in any way, by hook or by crook even if its collecting dust and crumbling, I will absolutely not allow any one including myself to throw it in the rubbish bin or give it to the salvation army. Coz its from you to me! And there are spurts like I always cry when I hear the song "Let it be" by the beetles. The effect is better achieved if its played live in front of me. My heart just goes a bit wobbly and then the tear glands start activating themselves. Call it weird, but I also duno whats wrong. The last thing I remember about this is actually elvina's shocked face coz when we went to karen's GE class, one of the performin group did this song and well.. I did my thing.. tears started showing. And weirdly enough when my good friend starts crying uncontrollably, I start to comfort her and then I will start tearing too. The good thing that comes out from this is that my friend will be so shocked that she stops momentarily and then yupz.. she stops crying.
I was just thinking earlier, how glad I am that I will be going to Europe with elv, jamie, jingsi, andy and dawn. Its as what we always believe in, the company. At the same time, I think Im really gg to miss a certain mr daniel ng hua qing. Come to think of it, its going to be the first time in 3 years that im not gg to see him for 3 weeks in a row. Usually due to events and circumstances, the most I dun see him is for 1 week and even so, the voice can be heard. hahaha Even during professional attachment when we were trying to take a break from each other , we "sway sway" gt into the same attachment firm and well the suanning and getting caught doing stupid things by him continued. Weird isnt it. Now that I think of it. Ya, so you will be sorely missed, dan. Like no late night solitares and hexic for 3 weeks and no nonsensical (or sometimes insightful) yakking away and no one to keep owlish hours with. But then again maybe I will be so tired out by the trip each day in Europe that I revert to normal sleeping hours. But considering that sleeping is not my no. 1 love, I doubt it will happen much. Amazing isnt it.
Ok goodness, I cant believe I went on and on, I am feeling a bit better now. I shall not fly my friend's aeroplane coz I know that kind of anticipation feeling and then the heavy plunk of disappointment that comes with it when you dont get what you want. Terrible isnt it. Well at least even if Im not feeling too fantastic, I shall strive to be a good company and make my friend a happy one.
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
A line which struck a chord:
"The things that make us happy often don't last forever," "So we make the best of the ones left behind, ya?"
Sunday, May 07, 2006
What have I been up to these 3 days??????
5th May (Friday)
Went with the the Europe gang to change alley to change money... went to see all the rates the money changers could offer. duno why i feel that the indian money changers more professional than the chinese ones.. must be a stero type. The rates were high, high, high... :s Highlight was the mango sago which andy said he used to have everyday during PA... steady.. quite nice..
After that we proceeded to orchard to make payment to STA for our hostels in London as well as hotel.. what can Isay.. more money out! and then accompanied elvina and andy to simlim to get their digicams.. more money out! for them that is. My best purchase that day was.. HEATPACKS... why? coz im super not cold tolerant.. get cold super easily... *shivers* so bought a whole stack of them! *yipee* Then we proceeded on to BUgis to this V8 cafe that played movies... and they were playing THE PROMISE... ahh lurve that show... *if time could flow backwards, winter turned into spring...* Dinner was especially sumptous that night coz we (elv, sam,jamie & me were famished!!) I mean we were reali famished!!! Absolutely tired when I reached home but still managed to catch 2 episode of Bleach and an episode of Desperate Housewives before I k.oed.
6th May (Saturday)
Spent the whole packing my whole room.. its been a 4 day project to date. For those who really know me... its really no mean feat to pack my whole room and im still at it.. the amt of trash and papers and books i ve set aside to be thrown away now reaches my thigh.... I think when this whole thing is complete i shall take a pic of it to show you guys.. hahaha
Went out for dinner and it rained with thunder and all at night! I like.. ahh coz im at home.. I love rainy days like tt when you are at home and can cuddle up all warm and cosy.
7th May (Sunday)
Was suppose to meet Elv and Sam at the boon lay interchange to go school together for the ambassador thing BUT i woke up late!! why?? COZ i was dreamin that i was preparing to go to school for that!! i mean .... how right??? In the dream i actually dreamt that elv msged me that she was gg to wear smth v bright today and she's v happy... so basically in the dream, i thought i was awake and gg to school BUT in actual fact i was still ASLEEP!!! what a joke ! Ya and so i was late and drove the car to school in the end AND managed to reach on time!!
The ambassador thing was alright.. one thing there was food ! AND i tell you, the cut off for business and accountancy is super high this year!! V good quality students... academically at least. Nontheless the girls to guys ratio still a bit unbalanced from what we saw today.. Straight after that drove home to fetch my cousin to the airport and then i came home to concuss...
ahhhhh....I FEEL LIKE GG TO KTV!!!!
5th May (Friday)
Went with the the Europe gang to change alley to change money... went to see all the rates the money changers could offer. duno why i feel that the indian money changers more professional than the chinese ones.. must be a stero type. The rates were high, high, high... :s Highlight was the mango sago which andy said he used to have everyday during PA... steady.. quite nice..
After that we proceeded to orchard to make payment to STA for our hostels in London as well as hotel.. what can Isay.. more money out! and then accompanied elvina and andy to simlim to get their digicams.. more money out! for them that is. My best purchase that day was.. HEATPACKS... why? coz im super not cold tolerant.. get cold super easily... *shivers* so bought a whole stack of them! *yipee* Then we proceeded on to BUgis to this V8 cafe that played movies... and they were playing THE PROMISE... ahh lurve that show... *if time could flow backwards, winter turned into spring...* Dinner was especially sumptous that night coz we (elv, sam,jamie & me were famished!!) I mean we were reali famished!!! Absolutely tired when I reached home but still managed to catch 2 episode of Bleach and an episode of Desperate Housewives before I k.oed.
6th May (Saturday)
Spent the whole packing my whole room.. its been a 4 day project to date. For those who really know me... its really no mean feat to pack my whole room and im still at it.. the amt of trash and papers and books i ve set aside to be thrown away now reaches my thigh.... I think when this whole thing is complete i shall take a pic of it to show you guys.. hahaha
Went out for dinner and it rained with thunder and all at night! I like.. ahh coz im at home.. I love rainy days like tt when you are at home and can cuddle up all warm and cosy.
7th May (Sunday)
Was suppose to meet Elv and Sam at the boon lay interchange to go school together for the ambassador thing BUT i woke up late!! why?? COZ i was dreamin that i was preparing to go to school for that!! i mean .... how right??? In the dream i actually dreamt that elv msged me that she was gg to wear smth v bright today and she's v happy... so basically in the dream, i thought i was awake and gg to school BUT in actual fact i was still ASLEEP!!! what a joke ! Ya and so i was late and drove the car to school in the end AND managed to reach on time!!
The ambassador thing was alright.. one thing there was food ! AND i tell you, the cut off for business and accountancy is super high this year!! V good quality students... academically at least. Nontheless the girls to guys ratio still a bit unbalanced from what we saw today.. Straight after that drove home to fetch my cousin to the airport and then i came home to concuss...
ahhhhh....I FEEL LIKE GG TO KTV!!!!
Thursday, May 04, 2006
AHH yet another quiz done!
Acts of Service
with a secondary love language being
Quality Time.
What it means?
It means I love it when you do smth for me which I know you dun like, coz I know it takes a lot to do it. It means I love it when we do things together coz there is onli 24 hours in a day and you are giving me some of it. It means I am pleased when you remember what I tell you coz it means its at least of some importance. It means I will like it when you think of me when doing your daily tasks and I love it when there is mutual support! That's what it means! " )
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The Five Love Languages
My primary love language is probablyActs of Service
with a secondary love language being
Quality Time.
Complete set of results
| Acts of Service: | 9 | |
| Quality Time: | 8 | |
| Physical Touch: | 5 | |
| Receiving Gifts: | 5 | |
| Words of Affirmation: | 3 |
What it means?
It means I love it when you do smth for me which I know you dun like, coz I know it takes a lot to do it. It means I love it when we do things together coz there is onli 24 hours in a day and you are giving me some of it. It means I am pleased when you remember what I tell you coz it means its at least of some importance. It means I will like it when you think of me when doing your daily tasks and I love it when there is mutual support! That's what it means! " )
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Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.Take the quiz
OOOoooo just got back home from school!! After all these days of slacking.. finally found today quite exciting.. hahaha cheap thrills, I call these. Its quite rejuvenating.. I need thrills!!!! I thrive on them!
Actually.. maybe its not that such a big deal but daddy & mummy dearest finally let me use THE CAR ALONE. NOt that I haven been driving but i have been driving around with parent supervision ever since that damn trailer kissed the side of the previous car. And to top off the thrill, my 2 lorealites dudes were in the car today! First time ever, any one has ever took mua car!
Andy was damn comical.. cannot forget his expression when I let him off at his block.. the "phew, phew, phew" look. And never did got to do the "leave dan @ the roadside" thing.... Well apart from some sharp turnings and honking at ppl who walk in the centre of the road like their grandfather owns it, I think I did pretty OK.. RIGHT GUYS???? haha *grinz* " )
Actually.. maybe its not that such a big deal but daddy & mummy dearest finally let me use THE CAR ALONE. NOt that I haven been driving but i have been driving around with parent supervision ever since that damn trailer kissed the side of the previous car. And to top off the thrill, my 2 lorealites dudes were in the car today! First time ever, any one has ever took mua car!
Andy was damn comical.. cannot forget his expression when I let him off at his block.. the "phew, phew, phew" look. And never did got to do the "leave dan @ the roadside" thing.... Well apart from some sharp turnings and honking at ppl who walk in the centre of the road like their grandfather owns it, I think I did pretty OK.. RIGHT GUYS???? haha *grinz* " )
Tuesday, May 02, 2006
Show some favouritism pls.
Dont be too hard on yourself and dont ask too much of the people around you.
I ll learn. I ll learn to take things as it comes and learn to let some go.
I shall be thankful there was a once upon a time.
I will be true to myself
And then I shall hope.
Dont be too hard on yourself and dont ask too much of the people around you.
I ll learn. I ll learn to take things as it comes and learn to let some go.
I shall be thankful there was a once upon a time.
I will be true to myself
And then I shall hope.