What would you do if one day you realise it's trickling away from you... just like sand in your hands. Everyday you hold on to it, and yet just like second nature, it trickles away. Like sand. Through your fingers.

Just open your hands and let it all flow?

What would you do?

And dun you think you can change anyone. That must be the silliest thought any one can have.

That feeling of helplessness. You ever felt before? When you just watch it all unfold and yet you cannot stop it. When your heart clenches and unclenches and yet you know you must carry on.

Bittersweet.

It never rains. But pours.

*feelin a tad melancholic tonight*

It has been a day of Highs and Lows....

On the 24th afternoon itself, i felt the same tinge of disappointment I once felt so often in the past. And it hurts to know that I can still feel this way. ..It was this and smth else. ..

It got better as the day went by though...Company was great at my colleague's place...Got lost once again though.. this time, twas his fault... But its ok, we both made it in the end. haha

Christmas with the NTUMarket was as usual a boisterous affair. I would never wana forfeit christmas with u guys.. such a fun bunch and oh, what good memories this bunch of ppl bring to me.

Watched shutter for like the second time.. and fell asleep near the ending.

Thanks Jingsi for getting me exactly what i wanted! Love it to bits. And for jamie and elv, thank you dear gals as well! Love them v much!

It was a day of Ups and Downs.. but more Ups. ..

Merry Christmas Folks...

It has been raining for the THIRD day in running so far.....

A colleague said to me, " I think the South China Sea is drying up"....

Im an expert on ELECTRICAL SWITCH BOARDS as a result of the rain as well...

BUT admist all these . . . Im weirdly starting to like the rain....coz i got myself a see-through brolly.. so now when i walk under my brolly, i can just lift my head and see the sky and the pitter patter rain right above.

And as I walked alone along the streets under my see-through brolly, I actually felt happy. " )

Yea.. its been a WHIRLWIND indeed. A few significant thoughts.

1. Im glad, reali glad, that i ve got some sensible, level-headed friends ard. Sometimes i get a bit rash and do things that even I never thought I would. And in this instance im so glad I actuallly thought abt askin my friends. These level-headed ppl who stopped me from doin smth rash. If I din rem wrongly, I think i vaugely remembered being scolded as well.. :(

2. I spent one of my best weekends today. Back in NTU no less. Company was surprisingly not too bad. Drive level topped up to the brim.

3. And I simply cant believe Christmas is like just Next week!? It's so soon! Im not ready for it yet! Went shopping with Elv on a few occassions and she has just convinced me to put up a XMAS LIST so that the buyer would have an easier time.So here it is...

Frankly, i duno whats wrong. But there isnt much im wishin for this year. U know, like THINGS.. hmm I have wishes.. but they are those that cannot be bought with money. So I dun think i can ask for them here.. hmmm BuT OK, with some help and prompting.. here are a few items i would smile at if I unwrap the wrapper and its in there!

A. I have this thing for T-shirts with the word PRINCESS on it. No surprises here right.. So its pretty simple here. A T-shirt with the word PRINCESS on it, preferably the "bling bling" kind. Background can be black or white. BUt i think white is better. smth like that. .

B. Next, hmm.. im having difficulty at this point already.. Hmmm how abt THE CRANBERRY SET from The Body Shop. Super like cranberries. I like Cranberry bread, Cranberry Vodka, Cranberry.. you get the idea...

C. I saw a PRINCESS - Crown ring with elv on sat! which shop I forgot.. but I must like it quite a bit coz I dun usually wear rings and yet im still thinking abt THAT particular one.....

Smth is wrong this year.. I dun seem to be able to think much of things i wana buy.. .. .

D. I think this may be a little out of range, But VERA WANG'S PRINCESS would be nice.

E. OK, this would be good too.. I want a HORSE-SHOE necklace.. Dun ask me why, but i ve always wanted one. .. Not the small feminine kind, but the larger bling bling kind. Ok, I think this is one thing, I ll reali be excited to have.

F. ANnnd how abt a FOUR LEAF CLOVER... in a bracelet, keychain, necklace, softtoy.. in any form.

ALright, thats abt it.. quite easy right? " )

Just 2 months and yet so many things have happened.

I dun even know where to start and what to say.

Actually, I feel kinda weird? In what sense? I also duno. haha.. hmm

It's messy.

And yet calming and defining at the same time. But of course one should not be rash and jump into things one do not know of well. But doesnt mean we cant take a risk?

But of course.. its good to be slow AND steady.. ok, maybe not neccessarily SLLLOOOOW BUT steady is good. steady and good. ok.

Ok. hmmm.. Just go with the flow. All the best.

Im talking to myself.