Oh how time flies! It's gg to be end of JUne already. And July beckons. Mixed Feelings. Very.
Anyway, is withholding information a form of lying? Albeit a not very blatently one. Is that alright?
Here's my take.
I hate it. Esp so when I find it out myself.
Trust me on that.
I dun forget.
posted by Princess Flowerbloom at 8:22 PM
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
If I could cough a bird down from the tree, last night, the trees would all be down and the birds all flown away. Couldnt sleep a wink last night coz of the cough.. that's it. How to survive today... . ..
Monday, June 26, 2006
I had a terrible sleep last night with those memories translating themselves into complicated dreams which when combined with work related events and other weird images makes the night an extremely terrible one. Woke up with a throbbing headache but still managed to notice that the morning clouds looked like fluffy cotton candy! I used to reali like this stuff a lot! Cotton Candy! I guess its still one of my little childhood indulgences. Still like it aplenty!
In the midst of all the bluess, here are some things which made me happi last week.
1) I met 2 fantastic ppl last Friday night for dinner. Although by then I was already coughing like nobody's business But i reali enjoyed the dory fish meal from TCC. No joke abt that. AND the company of course. One was fantastic with the stories and all and reali missed her company and the other was as usual late like duno what but was reali dressed for the occasion. haha
2) Gt a pair of heels from Charles and Keith that looks great for under $25 which is a great steal I think!
3) And weirdly as I was busy being pissed yesterday, someone made me realise how much he understood me. Just one word out from my mouth, actually without even hearing my voice and all, and he could always put a finger to it! Subconsciously I registered it but i was too overwhelmed with whatever terrible feelings I was having at that point in time. So to make my appreciation known, here's a thank you to you. It's always the little gestures that count. " )
And of course thanks to all u great ppl who have been askin abt this cough that I had. hahha It's the little gestures that count and urs count a great deal in allowin me to survive till the next weekend! *grinz*
In the midst of all the bluess, here are some things which made me happi last week.
1) I met 2 fantastic ppl last Friday night for dinner. Although by then I was already coughing like nobody's business But i reali enjoyed the dory fish meal from TCC. No joke abt that. AND the company of course. One was fantastic with the stories and all and reali missed her company and the other was as usual late like duno what but was reali dressed for the occasion. haha
2) Gt a pair of heels from Charles and Keith that looks great for under $25 which is a great steal I think!
3) And weirdly as I was busy being pissed yesterday, someone made me realise how much he understood me. Just one word out from my mouth, actually without even hearing my voice and all, and he could always put a finger to it! Subconsciously I registered it but i was too overwhelmed with whatever terrible feelings I was having at that point in time. So to make my appreciation known, here's a thank you to you. It's always the little gestures that count. " )
And of course thanks to all u great ppl who have been askin abt this cough that I had. hahha It's the little gestures that count and urs count a great deal in allowin me to survive till the next weekend! *grinz*
Have been lying in bed since 2 hours ago and I freakin cant get to sleep. What with the coughing and all, I tried the cough syrup, the warm water, the Mp3 player, the counting sheep and stil... the clock ticked away and I still cant get to sleep. Maybe it's cause of the coughing also.
So i just lie there and try to get to sleep. But instead all that happened was that memories came flooding back. Memories that were all too real and too sharp to forget. I dun even know if I would wan to forget them. So they just came awashing over me, over and over till i cannot bear it and had to wake up and do smth. It was like smth was pulling at me so much so that I had to come online.
Not that it was much comfort at all as well. Im still not sleepy enuff to sleep. I wonder how will I survive at work tml. SHould I confess that I was sick and had not enuff sleep right at the start of the day to my trainer so that he will excuse my lack-lustre performance for the rest of the day if i happen to nod off? Or should i just try to stay awake aniway?
So i just lie there and try to get to sleep. But instead all that happened was that memories came flooding back. Memories that were all too real and too sharp to forget. I dun even know if I would wan to forget them. So they just came awashing over me, over and over till i cannot bear it and had to wake up and do smth. It was like smth was pulling at me so much so that I had to come online.
Not that it was much comfort at all as well. Im still not sleepy enuff to sleep. I wonder how will I survive at work tml. SHould I confess that I was sick and had not enuff sleep right at the start of the day to my trainer so that he will excuse my lack-lustre performance for the rest of the day if i happen to nod off? Or should i just try to stay awake aniway?
Sunday, June 25, 2006
I'm sick!!!
Finally. After all those days of being strong and struggling to wake up for work on time, battling rainy dark clouds and the scorching hot sun. Im sick. I'm coughing like nobody's business and its so bad till my tummy muscles feel damn pain like i've been doing a zillion push-ups like that.
Yesterday I reached home at ard 5.30pm at then went to bathe and went to la-la land straight away. And I had to miss the NTUMarket dinner!!! *wails* Ha I'm sure it was as rowdy as usual. So sorry I missed it. And so I slept straight through dinner too all the way till 3 plus am when I woke up and felt terrible and then I started to miss a somebody so I closed my eyes and went straight to bed again and the next time i woke was in the morning at 9am plus. The last time I ate was at 1pm the previous day and so upon calculation, I had gone without food for ..*lets see* 20 hours?!!!! That's a mean feat for me man.... argh and the worst thing was I still dun have appetite for anything! Breakfast, I drank like 5 mouth of soup and then I feel like puking already....
Im so bored. I dun have the mood for anything. The worst is in the morning reali. None of ur friends are on msn. No one is awake to take ur phone calls or sms and coz its a Sunday.. emails are at their lowest count too.. . . what shall I do now after blogginng??? Go back to bed?? ahhhh.. Read a book?? I need to visit a library for that.. and I absolutely have no energy to even change and step out of my house.. . .
My mum and dad have been popping into my room to check on me frequently as I lie coughing in bed. Even my usually noisy brother have been taking efforts to try and not shout. Askin me to bathe early, rest more, wan to eat or not.. ahhh I feel like a little girl again. And I always feel like crying whenever I feel this way....
Finally. After all those days of being strong and struggling to wake up for work on time, battling rainy dark clouds and the scorching hot sun. Im sick. I'm coughing like nobody's business and its so bad till my tummy muscles feel damn pain like i've been doing a zillion push-ups like that.
Yesterday I reached home at ard 5.30pm at then went to bathe and went to la-la land straight away. And I had to miss the NTUMarket dinner!!! *wails* Ha I'm sure it was as rowdy as usual. So sorry I missed it. And so I slept straight through dinner too all the way till 3 plus am when I woke up and felt terrible and then I started to miss a somebody so I closed my eyes and went straight to bed again and the next time i woke was in the morning at 9am plus. The last time I ate was at 1pm the previous day and so upon calculation, I had gone without food for ..*lets see* 20 hours?!!!! That's a mean feat for me man.... argh and the worst thing was I still dun have appetite for anything! Breakfast, I drank like 5 mouth of soup and then I feel like puking already....
Im so bored. I dun have the mood for anything. The worst is in the morning reali. None of ur friends are on msn. No one is awake to take ur phone calls or sms and coz its a Sunday.. emails are at their lowest count too.. . . what shall I do now after blogginng??? Go back to bed?? ahhhh.. Read a book?? I need to visit a library for that.. and I absolutely have no energy to even change and step out of my house.. . .
My mum and dad have been popping into my room to check on me frequently as I lie coughing in bed. Even my usually noisy brother have been taking efforts to try and not shout. Askin me to bathe early, rest more, wan to eat or not.. ahhh I feel like a little girl again. And I always feel like crying whenever I feel this way....
Saturday, June 24, 2006
Three things I Hate:
1) Liars
2) Big Fat Liars
3) Liars Liars Liars....
Ok.. maybe not so much Liars BUT liars who lie to ME! : ( Just hate them.
On a lighter note,
The gal which i mentioned in my last post whom i just took a glance at and instantly disliked? I found her quite ok today. OK onli.. but better than what i thought of her yesterday. hahaha Surprisingly she turned out quite ok although she resembles this gal which i totally dislikE.. but its so not her fault right. Aniway..these days I have been thinking.. *ok i think everyday just that i think MORE now* in everything you do, it's that ATTITUDE that matters. reali. Its the ATTITUDE that will pull you true and let you shine with exellence!
And in today's fast paced world, I just want to say this to all the ppl i care abt
What is RIGHT is right even if NO one is doing it ; what is WRONG is wrong even if EVERYONE is doin it.
So stand by ur principles dear all and rise up to the occasion!
One more thing, hahah this is super random but I love guys who wear glasses! The intelligent looking kind of course. Not the funky thick kind, mind you. iTS amazing how they make them (the guys) look all dignified and witty and smart all in a second! even when some of them are not la. Just imagine, doesnt james lye, bae yong jun, che cheng jun, all look that teeniest bit even more fantastic in glasses? The thin rimmed kind. Ah they do exude a certain charm all of their own.
1) Liars
2) Big Fat Liars
3) Liars Liars Liars....
Ok.. maybe not so much Liars BUT liars who lie to ME! : ( Just hate them.
On a lighter note,
The gal which i mentioned in my last post whom i just took a glance at and instantly disliked? I found her quite ok today. OK onli.. but better than what i thought of her yesterday. hahaha Surprisingly she turned out quite ok although she resembles this gal which i totally dislikE.. but its so not her fault right. Aniway..these days I have been thinking.. *ok i think everyday just that i think MORE now* in everything you do, it's that ATTITUDE that matters. reali. Its the ATTITUDE that will pull you true and let you shine with exellence!
And in today's fast paced world, I just want to say this to all the ppl i care abt
What is RIGHT is right even if NO one is doing it ; what is WRONG is wrong even if EVERYONE is doin it.
So stand by ur principles dear all and rise up to the occasion!
One more thing, hahah this is super random but I love guys who wear glasses! The intelligent looking kind of course. Not the funky thick kind, mind you. iTS amazing how they make them (the guys) look all dignified and witty and smart all in a second! even when some of them are not la. Just imagine, doesnt james lye, bae yong jun, che cheng jun, all look that teeniest bit even more fantastic in glasses? The thin rimmed kind. Ah they do exude a certain charm all of their own.
Thursday, June 22, 2006
I ve been meaning to blog. BUT... ahh here's what i wanted to say on Tuesday! . ..
I woke up to the sound of "di-di-di-di-di..door closing" I opened my sleepy eyes and saw the familiar red ceiling railings of Jurong East and i rushed out..with eyes still filled with sleep.. ahh yet another "almost-overslept-my-stop" mrt incident. So tired, when i boarded the train at city hall, i just sank into the seat and went into deep sleep. @!#!@
Finally after all these years, I ve kinda comprehended the art of decision making. Personally, I feel that these few weeks have allowed me to put things into perspective and actually deep inside me, I have made a decision. So many decisions to be made these days. Its like you understand the situation and you have made a decision but aniway you stil hope for the best. Ya, that's what Im doing now. And so its now till the final showdown as i d like to term it.
And then I abruptly went to bed...
And here's what I wanted to say today..
Have you guys ever seen a person and disliked them straight away? That's terrible isnt it? But unfortunately, thats what happened to me today. Today I saw this gal and I disliked her right from the start. I dun like the way she talks, I dun like the way she does things and basically, I just dun like her. BUt i tell myself, come on gal, U must be objective. I shouldnt just take things at face value. BUT i just dun like her.....
And another thing.. omg.. today when i was on duty, SOMEONE.. flirted with me!!! If I can call that flirting.. He winked at me like 3 times in 2 mins?!!!! I'm like "oh! so what should I do" of course, I thought abt that SILENTLY to myself.. each time i asked him a qn, he winked at me and he replied in some weird tone?!! He's like the young (late 20s) rich brat in the BMW kind.. .. and im like... what the @#!# . . . .
In between work, I just thought of something which actually I think a lot about in the past. I used to wonder why do we meet the people we meet? There are so many people in this world so why have we crossed each other's paths? hahah.. it's like sometimes you are influenced by the people you meet. for better and for worse. And I for a fact know that I have met a great many friends who are a great influence in my life. Don't you think its wonderous that we have met each other?
Today on the way to work, I heard on the radio, "What is love?"
Love means thinking of you, Love means always wanting to be with you. Love means being able to withstand the test of time. Love means exclusivity and most importantly, Love means being able to wish the person the best that they can be, so sometimes, Love means to let go.
I woke up to the sound of "di-di-di-di-di..door closing" I opened my sleepy eyes and saw the familiar red ceiling railings of Jurong East and i rushed out..with eyes still filled with sleep.. ahh yet another "almost-overslept-my-stop" mrt incident. So tired, when i boarded the train at city hall, i just sank into the seat and went into deep sleep. @!#!@
Finally after all these years, I ve kinda comprehended the art of decision making. Personally, I feel that these few weeks have allowed me to put things into perspective and actually deep inside me, I have made a decision. So many decisions to be made these days. Its like you understand the situation and you have made a decision but aniway you stil hope for the best. Ya, that's what Im doing now. And so its now till the final showdown as i d like to term it.
And then I abruptly went to bed...
And here's what I wanted to say today..
Have you guys ever seen a person and disliked them straight away? That's terrible isnt it? But unfortunately, thats what happened to me today. Today I saw this gal and I disliked her right from the start. I dun like the way she talks, I dun like the way she does things and basically, I just dun like her. BUt i tell myself, come on gal, U must be objective. I shouldnt just take things at face value. BUT i just dun like her.....
And another thing.. omg.. today when i was on duty, SOMEONE.. flirted with me!!! If I can call that flirting.. He winked at me like 3 times in 2 mins?!!!! I'm like "oh! so what should I do" of course, I thought abt that SILENTLY to myself.. each time i asked him a qn, he winked at me and he replied in some weird tone?!! He's like the young (late 20s) rich brat in the BMW kind.. .. and im like... what the @#!# . . . .
In between work, I just thought of something which actually I think a lot about in the past. I used to wonder why do we meet the people we meet? There are so many people in this world so why have we crossed each other's paths? hahah.. it's like sometimes you are influenced by the people you meet. for better and for worse. And I for a fact know that I have met a great many friends who are a great influence in my life. Don't you think its wonderous that we have met each other?
Today on the way to work, I heard on the radio, "What is love?"
Love means thinking of you, Love means always wanting to be with you. Love means being able to withstand the test of time. Love means exclusivity and most importantly, Love means being able to wish the person the best that they can be, so sometimes, Love means to let go.
Sunday, June 18, 2006
This morning, I woke up to a darkened sky filled with thunder clouds, a sprained *or so I think, coz it hurts like anything* neck, a terrible sore throat and a headache at the back of my head. I felt like everything except gg to work... it's like omg...Really felt like crying then.
DRAGGED myself to work and barely survived through the day. Luckily Daddy and Mummy came to pick me up from work and then later went shopping with my dear sec. school gf.
And yes, shopping... any self-respecting gal would at least chiong the shopping thing once during GSS. I went today. Amazingly the crowd was not like terrible or anything, maybe coz the sale is ending soon? But aniway the bargains were not say fantastic or anything. But what made today worth it all in the end even with the sore throat and all, was the company of that dear gal. It has been a long time since we last meet up but Im always amazed at how we can start off like we've never stopped b4. The company was fantastic. The purchases were pretty. My fav is the CHARM bracelet, Thank you babe. " )
Once again, on my way home, I lifted my head and the stars were still there. And once again I tell myself to keep faith and trust.
DRAGGED myself to work and barely survived through the day. Luckily Daddy and Mummy came to pick me up from work and then later went shopping with my dear sec. school gf.
And yes, shopping... any self-respecting gal would at least chiong the shopping thing once during GSS. I went today. Amazingly the crowd was not like terrible or anything, maybe coz the sale is ending soon? But aniway the bargains were not say fantastic or anything. But what made today worth it all in the end even with the sore throat and all, was the company of that dear gal. It has been a long time since we last meet up but Im always amazed at how we can start off like we've never stopped b4. The company was fantastic. The purchases were pretty. My fav is the CHARM bracelet, Thank you babe. " )
Once again, on my way home, I lifted my head and the stars were still there. And once again I tell myself to keep faith and trust.
Friday, June 16, 2006
Developed a throbbing headache on the way back on the train.. it was really bad. And to top it all off, I think a sore throat is coming on..
Looked up into the sky tonight and loo behold! There were many stars! Smth I haven seen in a long time. Duno is it because there were no stars to look at or I haven been lifting my head up to look into the sky for quite some time. But they were there tonight.
Saw this pair of wonderful looking shades at Aldo while waiting for dan to come out of the washroom. Shall go get my hands on that since till now im stil thinking about it. But its not even discounted. Keep feeling there's smth wrong in not buying discounted items when its the Great Singapore Sales. haha .. I shall try and conquer that feeling and get the aldo shades.
And lastly, before I go and nurse my headache, I shall show some faith in the people I ve grown to love. I shall wait patiently and I hope in the end, I will not be disappointed.
Looked up into the sky tonight and loo behold! There were many stars! Smth I haven seen in a long time. Duno is it because there were no stars to look at or I haven been lifting my head up to look into the sky for quite some time. But they were there tonight.
Saw this pair of wonderful looking shades at Aldo while waiting for dan to come out of the washroom. Shall go get my hands on that since till now im stil thinking about it. But its not even discounted. Keep feeling there's smth wrong in not buying discounted items when its the Great Singapore Sales. haha .. I shall try and conquer that feeling and get the aldo shades.
And lastly, before I go and nurse my headache, I shall show some faith in the people I ve grown to love. I shall wait patiently and I hope in the end, I will not be disappointed.
WOke up.. and now im in a bloody pissed mood. Dun ask me why. I think I got up from the wrong side of the bed. And to top it all off, its a FRIDAY. It's a wonder how someone can just ruin my mood like that. Sharks. It suxs.
Thursday, June 15, 2006
Today as I took the long bus ride home, a few things flitted across my mind. With the number of different ppl I meet each day these days, here's what I have to say.
Firstly, dear all dear friends, I cannot emphasize enough on the importance of getting ur kids educated. And I dun mean just in school. But REALLY being an educated person. The reason being so that they will grow up into balanced and reasonable adults who do not make a fuss about little minor things in public and flare up at some unsuspecting individuals and make snide remarks about others or do silly things in public and the list goes on and on. Yes, and here I would like to reiterate that it IS very important to get ur kids educated in future, for those who are intending to have kids, that is.
Secondly... hmm secondly.. haha hmm ok guess what, just realised that there's no secondly actually. My thoughts are apparently quite random!
The next thing that I thought about while holding on to a strawberry smoothie on the bus was this song which I heard. Ithink the chorus goes like that, "ur simply the best, better than all the rest!" Duno why I suddenly have a fascination with this line. Like you know, the obsession with BEST. Another one is Good enough is never Enough. They are like guiding principles. hahah Am I being a little to hard on myself? " )
Ahh and yes, I have been toying with this in my head the whole day. Halfway through the day, I suddenly decided that I would very much like it if someone writes me a song. Just listen to all the songs on radio, be it in English or Chinese! You know, like instead of writing me a letter, write me a song! Then you can sing it to me as well! So sweeet! I ll be damn thrilled I bet. Ahh yes, the more I think about it, the more I like the idea! Write me a song someone! haha
And here's a picture with a story to tell! OK, see, this pic shows me giving Ms elvina a whole box of cherry flavoured chewing gum! The interesting question is WHY? haha BECAUSE.. I brought an extra lock (u know, the kind to lock up the bags) to london and THEN i FORGOT the lock combination!! omy gawd! It's like.. ya oh god! hahah and I tried and tried and tried. EVen when we were walkin the streets of London I was trying till I got fed up and elv asked me to pass it to her. And as I was trudging the streets with a depressed feeling, she was quietly turning all the dials on my lock behind me! And you know what she did? She did the combination thing. She tried ALL the combination numbers starting from ONe and omy goodness! sHE broke the combi! How fantastic is that man! And coz the things in london so ex and i cant give her a treat, I surrendered my only box of cherry flavored gum.. ...
which 1 day later, she returned to me. Coz apparently she doesnt like cherries much. muahahah.
Firstly, dear all dear friends, I cannot emphasize enough on the importance of getting ur kids educated. And I dun mean just in school. But REALLY being an educated person. The reason being so that they will grow up into balanced and reasonable adults who do not make a fuss about little minor things in public and flare up at some unsuspecting individuals and make snide remarks about others or do silly things in public and the list goes on and on. Yes, and here I would like to reiterate that it IS very important to get ur kids educated in future, for those who are intending to have kids, that is.
Secondly... hmm secondly.. haha hmm ok guess what, just realised that there's no secondly actually. My thoughts are apparently quite random!
The next thing that I thought about while holding on to a strawberry smoothie on the bus was this song which I heard. Ithink the chorus goes like that, "ur simply the best, better than all the rest!" Duno why I suddenly have a fascination with this line. Like you know, the obsession with BEST. Another one is Good enough is never Enough. They are like guiding principles. hahah Am I being a little to hard on myself? " )
Ahh and yes, I have been toying with this in my head the whole day. Halfway through the day, I suddenly decided that I would very much like it if someone writes me a song. Just listen to all the songs on radio, be it in English or Chinese! You know, like instead of writing me a letter, write me a song! Then you can sing it to me as well! So sweeet! I ll be damn thrilled I bet. Ahh yes, the more I think about it, the more I like the idea! Write me a song someone! haha
And here's a picture with a story to tell! OK, see, this pic shows me giving Ms elvina a whole box of cherry flavoured chewing gum! The interesting question is WHY? haha BECAUSE.. I brought an extra lock (u know, the kind to lock up the bags) to london and THEN i FORGOT the lock combination!! omy gawd! It's like.. ya oh god! hahah and I tried and tried and tried. EVen when we were walkin the streets of London I was trying till I got fed up and elv asked me to pass it to her. And as I was trudging the streets with a depressed feeling, she was quietly turning all the dials on my lock behind me! And you know what she did? She did the combination thing. She tried ALL the combination numbers starting from ONe and omy goodness! sHE broke the combi! How fantastic is that man! And coz the things in london so ex and i cant give her a treat, I surrendered my only box of cherry flavored gum.. ...
which 1 day later, she returned to me. Coz apparently she doesnt like cherries much. muahahah.
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
I'm settling in I think. I think I am I think I am. haha random postings today.. first off, random pics!
Random Happening No. 1
When I was in Europe, everything was so expensive that we din buy softdrinks at all! coz it costs loads! Then halfway along the journey, I started to develop a craving for 7-up! Terrible! And so on the plane journey back home, I drank up loads on the soft drinks and here's the pics to show! haha " )
Sprite!! - My first choice!
Then couldnt resist 7-UP with that fido-dido cartoon
And how could I give Pepsi a miss???
Random Happening No. 2
Sometimes when Im bored or frustrated, I take this out to play.. and look what I discovered!
Look! Its standing on my fav thing - IBM lappie and its covered with my fav flowers in a pastel shade of pink with small beady eyes and a thoughtful look on its face! What a combi! I think its thinking together with me...Think think think!
And look what I discovered! It has a curly tail!! and the best thing? . . ..
It's STRETCHABLE! what fun!! Just like that jelly handrest cow which can be squeezed! haha
Random Happening No. 3
Have I ever done an introduction?
<-- This is my hamster. It passed away 2 years ago. It was the best pet I ever had. Haha. ok this sounds a bit weird. But ya, it was one of the greatest hamster I ever knew!
Random Happening No. 1
When I was in Europe, everything was so expensive that we din buy softdrinks at all! coz it costs loads! Then halfway along the journey, I started to develop a craving for 7-up! Terrible! And so on the plane journey back home, I drank up loads on the soft drinks and here's the pics to show! haha " )
Sprite!! - My first choice!
Then couldnt resist 7-UP with that fido-dido cartoon
And how could I give Pepsi a miss???
Random Happening No. 2
Sometimes when Im bored or frustrated, I take this out to play.. and look what I discovered!
Look! Its standing on my fav thing - IBM lappie and its covered with my fav flowers in a pastel shade of pink with small beady eyes and a thoughtful look on its face! What a combi! I think its thinking together with me...Think think think!
And look what I discovered! It has a curly tail!! and the best thing? . . ..
It's STRETCHABLE! what fun!! Just like that jelly handrest cow which can be squeezed! haha
Random Happening No. 3
Have I ever done an introduction?
<-- This is my hamster. It passed away 2 years ago. It was the best pet I ever had. Haha. ok this sounds a bit weird. But ya, it was one of the greatest hamster I ever knew!
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
It's officially spoilt again. My IBM. I was just using it last night and now, the CD drive is not functioning yet again. What's the matter man... argh... I always get bloody vexed when any part of my laptop malfunctions. Totally gets on my nerves.
Finally all the bills from my Europe trip are comin in. And yes, it looks terrible as well. On my table now is the bill from Singtel which goes up to hundreds.. *yes, ur eyes are not kidding u* and my uob bill ALSO goes up to hundreds. So there, I guess my first pay cheque will go towards contributing to these expenses. So much for self enrichment overseas.
Grrr....
Finally all the bills from my Europe trip are comin in. And yes, it looks terrible as well. On my table now is the bill from Singtel which goes up to hundreds.. *yes, ur eyes are not kidding u* and my uob bill ALSO goes up to hundreds. So there, I guess my first pay cheque will go towards contributing to these expenses. So much for self enrichment overseas.
Grrr....
Monday, June 12, 2006
In retrospect, one week have passed.
On hindsight, the recent and oh-so-not-very-recent afterall europe trip has left some lingering thoughts in my mind. Like how when i was there, I missed Singapore and everything and everyone here so much. And yet at the same time, it took my mind of some stuff. Everyday we just travelled around looking at new things, taking pictures and just being very carefree. And whenever you start to brood, there are new sights, new things to take ur mind off it. No wonder some people travel to forget. I never used to get it, but now i do. Except in the depth of the night, when all ur room-mates are asleep and ur still awake, then u get to thinking again.
And then when Im back, I start to wonder. Wonder if Im still the same. It's like a tug of war. Maybe like how a caterpillar might feel when its breaking out of its cocoon to become a butterfly. Digress a bit, it may seem these days that I have a tendency to blog about very pensive matters. But im alright really. It's just that I need to empty my thoughts everyday. It's one thing to think about it and another to see it in words. The latter seems weirdly enought to simplify matters so much more.
I m so much more happier and appreciative of the little things in life now as well? Like how much I appreciate each and every NTUmarket gathering we have nowadays. Each lift home. Each msn window. Each and every person's voice and each and everyone's little gesture. hahahhaha... Must be coz the people I meet these days often tell me how envious they are of our close-knitted group. Indeed this is rare which makes it so much the more precious to me.
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Sunday, June 11, 2006
You know what's the best thing about the human race? They are always so filled with hope. Just like me. You know what's the strongest organ in the human body? Its the heart. Just like mine. If I had to count the number of disappointments that I had to take till now, my heart would have be in a very jelly state. Unfortunately, there's this thing, or should I say fortunately, called hope. Which keeps me in a very confused state since I keep hoping when I get disappointed. Logically when you get bitten, you should just go wash ur wound and then keep away from the thing that bit you. Thats the logical way.
But stupid me, gets bitten, washes my wounds then I happily go near again. very very near. How idoitic can that be? very. This little thing called hope. What's it. Is it something good that keeps you alive when you are down even when its not true? Or is it something bad that shields you from the truth and then you start to believe smth is possible even when its not? Or maybe that's called delusion. There's a fine line between hope and delusion just like love and hate.
Sometimes I wished I din have to think so much. Sometimes I wished I could be one of those ppl who laugh when they are happy and cry when they are sad. Shout when they are angry and smile when they are pleased. Such simple things but oh so hard. I laugh when I m happy but i want to reali reali laugh. I cry when Im sad but I wished I could cry on the outside instead of on the inside. I shout when Im angry but I wish I could shout at the person who made me angry instead of at myself. I smile when Im pleased.. hmm ok this is pretty simple. Smiling is universal. " )
I wonder what wil happen 2 years down the road.Will I still get disappointed so easily and will I still hope so easily?
But stupid me, gets bitten, washes my wounds then I happily go near again. very very near. How idoitic can that be? very. This little thing called hope. What's it. Is it something good that keeps you alive when you are down even when its not true? Or is it something bad that shields you from the truth and then you start to believe smth is possible even when its not? Or maybe that's called delusion. There's a fine line between hope and delusion just like love and hate.
Sometimes I wished I din have to think so much. Sometimes I wished I could be one of those ppl who laugh when they are happy and cry when they are sad. Shout when they are angry and smile when they are pleased. Such simple things but oh so hard. I laugh when I m happy but i want to reali reali laugh. I cry when Im sad but I wished I could cry on the outside instead of on the inside. I shout when Im angry but I wish I could shout at the person who made me angry instead of at myself. I smile when Im pleased.. hmm ok this is pretty simple. Smiling is universal. " )
I wonder what wil happen 2 years down the road.Will I still get disappointed so easily and will I still hope so easily?