This morning I was disappointed with you. Then this afternoon, i found peace with myself and in the evening i was impressed and awed, almost like a young gal all over again and tonight, i was humbled. How can a gal feel so much all in one day... almost like a rollercoaster ride.

Im gg to bed with the humbled feeling. Humbled by the words you shared tonight. Not one of you, but three of you. Its funny how you really start seeing things that you have always known when ppl start to verbalise them. Ask because it shows you care. I ve always known that. But something in me always prevents me from doin it. WHy, you ask. Shouldnt it be like second nature? I don't know. Maybe im just so stuck in my ways that i cant bring myself to. Or maybe its just that im not brave at all and im afraid of what you would tell me. Or maybe i just think too much.

And i reali like the way you speak, it oozes style and humor. Yes, that's it. Humor. Maybe in the end all else doesnt matter, so long as you make me laugh.

I ve felt so many things. But tonight,

I feel humbled.

Thanks for always thinking about me. Thanks for doing these things for me. Thanks for always fetching me to and from school so that i do not need to nudge and budge with all the other people on the cramp bus. So that i do not need to lunge my laptop to and fro.

Thank you for helpin me to carry my bag and shoe bag and all, although sometimes u do it albeit a little grouchily. Thanks nontheless, so that i do not need to strain my shoulders and so that i do not need to carry such heavy stuff since im already not very tall and you are a strappin young man.

I came back and there was lunch on the table already. My trousers with the faulty zip was fixed. And the speakers i told you i wanted two days ago was, standing, a gleaming silver on my desk. All these, just for me.

Thank you daddy, mummy and of course, the brother that's so like me.

I hate to generalize.. but they are all the same... all these years, all ive seen. They are all the same....

... and so for many years like this, she went through life with a quiet confidence and no one took much notice. No one understood and no one questioned and she never explained...