It's 1pm and I'm still at home. Coz im gg to work late tonight to oversee some operations work. So had the luxury to wake late today. Luxurious.
These days I think I have been taking a lot of deep breaths. It's to clear the system. Nowadays some things I just close one eye and enjoy it as it comes. Coz to live without is painful but to probe is even more painful. But i like it too much to let go! *wails* So like what ignorant humans do, I ignore. But im sure one day it ll explode in my face. haha I sure hope there will be a safety net somewhere when that happens.
I have a strategy for most things. except this. *ponders* If i actually analyse it, its reali quite delusional. Coz everyday I do so many things and potter around and keep myself busy. And each time the thought surfaces, I push it away and then I cramp my brain with some other thing and then I busy my hands as well. But deep beneath the surface, it lurks. Subconsiously its always there.
Now i dun even know what I want *lost*
Im gg back to bed. Wake me up at dinner time.
posted by Princess Flowerbloom at 1:10 PM