Alone in the room now... have been on-ing the aircon for 2 whole days now... my sleepin hours a bit junked up too also since I like forgo sleep for like the whole of yesterday till today 10am. and then i Slept till duno what time and then forgo food. .. and then almost died of hunger AND then i had to rush down to Can 16 to save myself...

Consumed half a packet of rice and then went to watch some anime and consumed a box of pocky in the process... and then felt super sleepy, went to sleeep and had weird dreams which caused me to have a terrible headache when Iwoke. I feel like im hallucinating or smth.. how can anyone's dreams be so real... when reality and dreams overlap a bit...

Mugging for GMS in progress... why is this module lidat....can it be structured a bit? Not very friendly you know... I was so frustrated I actually started shouting in my room a bit..then i realised its not very sound proof so i stopped.

Today's reali a day of surprise. Everyone is surprising everyone. Even i surprised myself. Whats this thing called feelings. I wish it came in a removable box or smth so that i can take it out and keep it somewhere for a while when im tired and all. And then when im ready, i ll just fix it back. Feelings which includes irrational fears and worries and insecurities. Feelings of joy, happiness, contentment and the feeling of being loved. I want them to come in 2 separate compartments so that i can put aside all the bad ones and keep the good ones.

Some things you dont want to know, dont want to see. Turn a blind eye to them and slowly they will all fade away. You know what.. i think they are just like balloons.......