As we'r all rushin through our FYPs, Im halfway through The JOyLuck Club by Amy Tan... understand that many of you have had this as a lit text. I've heard so much about it that im relishing the fact that i finally have it in my hands. I borrowed the book like close to 5 days ago? And i only got to start it now.Even as im typing this, its lying in front of me waiting to be finished. All the past days, it has been lying around like this unwrapped present awaitin to be open. And in me was this bubbling awaiting and excitement.

But now that i ve started reading it, at night, no less. Im a bit frightened, truth be told. It talks all about the lives of these chinese women in foreign America and the culture clash during the period which sees many migrants from china during the war to countries like the States as well as Canada. And each of these women have had tragic stories in the past in China all buried deep in their hearts and minds. And there's all that chinese superstitions as well as the beliefs that each of them hold on so strongly too. Not that chinese superstition is bad.. but at a particular time after reading it, i felt realli suffocated and afraid. Such dark moments.

I guess its the way these stories brought me back to the time where i had such dark thoughts too during my younger days. The nights were always filled with uncertainity and a kind of craving for company. all night long. It's like suddenly you feel all so alone in the world and nothing can save you from all those unspeakable and irrational fears. And all you want is for your daddy and mummy to be by your side to hug you and say everything will be fine just coz they are there.

Sometimes nightmares like this comes back once in a long long while and you wonder. Maybe your sleepin mind knows you better than you think you do. But since i ve started on the book, i ll finish it. " )