Had a dream today. Those kind that makes your heart goes "thud thud thud" when u open your eyes. Those kind that you will thinking about fleetingly the whole day. I woke feeling all breathless and a little frightened. And then i went on to read my morning papers. And when i came to the horoscope; here's what it says. Nothing can sound worse than this at this point in time;

When you're involved, on any level, you're involved entirely. There are no two ways about it, and no changing your mind once your heart has arrived at a decision. Keep that in mind before you get too caught up ...

.. Before you get too caught up.. isit me but its liek so forebodin... Maybe im living in one big dream and i should wake up after all. How many lies can you tell yourself aniway. It's one big lie. that goes on and on and on and on and on and on. And in the end, there will be nothing. All gone to dust. . . NOthing. But then again who knows what will happen in a few months time, everything changes.. maybe i should just enjoy what there is now and then worry later.. BUt how can i!

When the head and the heart is in conflict? Which one wins? But there are always uncontrollable external effects and trust me, they are reali uncontrollable. Given a chance, would i want it to ever happen this way? I also duno... how would i know ?! But everything happens for a reason, dun they? and this had better be happening for a damn good reason. But the more i think about it, the bleaker it looks. hmhp.

Maybe i should just pack up and fly away for a little while.. ha