This story is so familiar...... It's as if I ve seen it somewhere. If this were a story, then yet again Im one of the characters in it.

There must be something about me. The fact that I am getting embroiled in something like this again. Is there? Everyday I ask myself....again?????? The answer is still the same. No....No...No... BUT life has a weird way of putting things in your path. Will it be the same again? I duno. I guess I can only wait and see. Do I want it to be the same again? That's really a question I have to ask myself. And I dont think I will get the answers anytime soon.

Sometimes I feel like the higher power up there has already planned everything. You know, like how a scriptwriter writes his script? Everything is planned. Right down to what is going to be said. At the end of the day, after the script is written, he lies back and watch it all unfold. Sometimes, I feel that way. Just sometimes. Other days, I believe you cannot change what happened, but the only controllable you have is how you react to it. But of course, we are all humans after all.

Have to be very careful about handling this..... hmmm.....sigh.....*blardy hell*


*thoughtful*